Skinny Love - Newtmas

Chapter Sixteen

Thomas pov

"Dude come on you have to go to class!" Minho groans for the tenth time in the past three minutes.

"I told you I'm not going!" I mumble into my pillow.

"You can't just sit here all day hating yourself again Thomas. It's been three days! You have to go outside and go to class!"

"I just want to be sad and not go outside and I'm having trouble doing that with you pestering me."

Minho laughs but pulls me up by the back of my shirt. "Fine, don't go to class."

Leaning my back against the wall I smile, folding my legs up under me. I won. But the smile fades from my face when I remember why I refuse to go to class. "He's not going to call is he?" I whisper, kind of to Minho but kind of to myself.

"Thomas just stop okay? He's going to call."

Shaking my head I close my eyes, replaying the morning when I tried to apologize to Newt for the umpteenth time since I left his room. "Well if you're not going to class you should at least go get something to eat. You can get some fresh air and we're out of chips anyways."

When I don't answer Minho only sighs. "See you later." The door opens and closes. I'm left in silence once again.

Opening my eyes I look around the room and a pang of sadness hits my heart. After spending time with Newt being alone feels ten thousand times worse than it used to. I used to enjoy alone time, but now it feels agonizing without Newt here with me. Sighing I push the blankets off of me. Minho is right, maybe fresh air will do me some good.

Pulling off my shirt that I've been wearing since Gally's party I grab a long sleeved flannel shirt - the one Newt wore when we went to that party a few weeks ago. Slipping into the shirt I grab a clean pair of sweatpants and take off the ones I've been wearing. Once I'm dressed I run my fingers through my hair which is horribly messy.

A look out the window shows that it's snowing outside, grabbing a pullover hoodie and checking to make sure I have money and my food card I walk out the door.

The hallways are freezing so I wrap my arms around myself to keep from shivering. Turning the corner I push open the double doors and shield my eyes from the blowing snow. The snow isn't too heavy but the wind is blowing it into my eyes. After about fifteen feet I give on up buying Minho his freaking chips and turn around, not willing to get frostbite just so he can have a snack.

"Tommy?" A voice calls from behind me.

Stopping in my tracks I slowly turn around. Newt stands ten feet away, a surprised look on his face and snowflakes in his hair. After not seeing him for so long I'm almost surprised by his beauty, almost forgetting the exact color of his golden hair and his eyes or the facial expressions he makes when he's concentrating. He wears a coat that is too big for him and sweatpants.

"Newt," I breath out. It's almost as if he's an apparition, like he's not really here.

"If you're going to class I can come back later?" Newt suggests. I can see him shivering from where I stand. Shaking my head I fumble for the right words, "No I wasn't-I'm not going-" stumbling over my words I take a deep breath, "I'm good to talk now."

Nodding once Newt closes the gap between us and we walk back to my room together, neither of us saying a word. After swiping my keycard to let us in I held the door open for a Newt and did so again at my room.

Slipping past me Newt stands awkwardly in the middle of the room closing the door I turn to face him, to afraid to move any closer to him. "Tommy," Newt starts his eyes flicking between me and the floor. "So uh I've been thinking a lot...and I realized that...you're right. I was overreacting. It was just a game. I'm sorry."

Opening my mouth to object Newt shakes his head and continues. "Everyone was just having fun and I took it too seriously. And I'm also sorry for everything after, I'm embarrassed that you had to see me intoxicated. I'm going to pay you back the money for the drinks too." His eyes are glued to the floor and I want nothing more then him to look at me.

"Newt please...please don't apologize, because I don't deserve it. I feel horrible enough already. And don't even think about paying me back I don't give a crap about money. Everything-every single thing that I said was wrong. I regret it all and I'm so sorry you had to hear it. I'm a piece of crap person and I know it, but you aren't okay? And you should never feel like you are. Ever. I know that I probably blew it but I just want you to know...Newt I...I care about you so much and I-" Finally looking up at me Newt takes a few steps forward and I fear that he's leaving, but instead he stops in front of me and wraps his arms around my torso, resting his head against my shoulder.

After a quick moment of shock I tightly return the embrace. "I forgive you," Newt whispers. I want to look him in the eye and tell that he shouldn't, that I don't deserve it but instead I smile at the fact that somebody like Newt forgave me and wants to be with me after everything I've done even though I don't deserve his affection at all.

"I missed you so much," I whisper back, tightening my hold on him, dreading the moment when I have to let go. The soft sound of Newt's breathing soothes me, closing my eyes I focus on it, on the feel of his arms around me, the familiar scent of his clothes. I hadn't realized fully the psychical ache I have been feeling the past seventy two hours for the feel of Newt against me.

We stay like this - holding onto each other so tightly it almost hurts - for at least five minutes. Newt finally pulls back but only enough to look into my eyes, a small smile spreading on his face. Keeping his arms around me he leans in and kisses me lightly and it's like an electric current flowing through my body. Not being able to go another second without kissing him I put my hand on the back of his neck and pull him close, deepening the kiss. My hands slide down to his waist while his hands tangle in my hair.

The absence of his mouth hits me full force, a hunger for more growing deeper by the second. Unfortunately Newt breaks away and bites his lip, resting his forehead against mine. "Can we just forget the last few days ever happened and go back to normal?" He pauses, "Because to be honest sitting in my room without you was almost unbearable." Mesmerized by his quiet voice I can't form words for a moment.

"You don't know how hard it was for me not to call you or show up at your room," I say in a quiet voice, my arms still wrapped around Newt's waist.

"I'm sorry Tommy. I should've come here sooner."

Letting out a light breath a small smile forms on my lips, I can't believe how lucky I am to have somebody like Newt in my life who I would hope feels the same way about me that I do about him.

"No matter how much I'd love to stay like this forever I've got a horrible headache and a class to get to in half an hour," Newt murmurs, lingering for a moment before pulling away from me.

"Crap, I don't have any aspirin," I mumble, looking around the room as if that will make some magically appear.

"It's fine Tommy. I think I'm just exhausted, didn't get much sleep the past few nights." He mumbles the last part.

"Neither did I," I say, taking his hand in mine and brining it to my lips, kissing his finger tips. "Do you have to go? Maybe you can just lay down for a minute here?"

A small smile shows on Newt's face and he nods. Holding his hand we walk over to my bed and Newt lays down, closing his eyes immediately. Slipping into bed next to him I lay with my chest against his back and wrap my arms around him. Letting out a small breath Newt relaxes into me. "I can't fall asleep...class starts in half an hour." Newt mumbles, already sinking into sleep. "Don't worry, I'll wake you up," I murmur in his ear.

Before long Newt's breathing evens out and his chest rises and falls steadily. Laying here, holding Newt in my arms while he sleeps is the best thing I could ever ask for. If I could only freeze this moment and stay like this forever.

Warmth spreads through my chest as a thought pops in my head which doesn't at all surprise me. I know I've been feeling it for weeks but just haven't said the actual words.

I am crazy, deeply, hopelessly in love with Newt.

a/n: I didn't want to put an authors note and ruin the sweet moment but I just had to say thank you to my readers I love you all so much and I promise I'm going back to Newt's pov next chapter. I hope you enjoyed this and forgive Thomas hehe:) Xx McKenna.