𝐏𝐔𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄𝐒 | ✍︎︎

𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟱

I've been sleeping a lot, and it's scaring me.

My whole life I've been taught to sleep with my eyes open, not let any vulnerability show.

My walls are crumbling down and it's like everything is scaring me.

I haven't moved off of Zara since yesterday. I really have to pee, but I don't want to risk anything.

No one has hit me, and no one has tried either.

"Puddles, I really need to pee." Zara muttered sheepishly, and I watched as he curled and uncurled his fist as if he has been holding it until he couldn't anymore.

I made him stay for too long.

I rolled off of him quickly, slightly wincing when the sheets rubbed against the bruises on my torso.

Zara, observing this, smiled softly at me.

"I'll make sure to get your medicine as well." He scurried out of my room, leaving me to burrow myself into the softest blanket I have ever felt. Usok had left when his phone rang at around 4 in the morning. It woke me up, but they didn't seem to notice.

Zara and Usok were whisper arguing, because Usok didn't want to leave but appearently it was too important not to.

While I hugged Puddles under the blanket, I couldn't help but wonder why I'm here.

No one explained to me why.

My door opening made me hug Puddles closer to me. For a moment, I didn't know where I was.

But then I felt the soft blanket, and I would have never had that back at home.

I breathed a shaky sigh of relief, although guilt flooded me when I did.

Mommy loved me I repeat to myself multiple times before I hear Zaras voice again.

"Can you take off the blanket for me, Clailea?" Zara whispered, as if he had spoken any louder I would shatter before his eyes.

This is where I'm confused.

He is not telling me, he is giving me a choice.

He's asking if I can, and if I said no, maybe it wouldn't be going against him because he asked.

Although, I lift the blanket off of me anyway, to see Zaras smiling face.

He placed the bottle of pills on my side table, and when I reached for them he held a finger up.

"You need to eat first or it will upset your stomach and defeat the whole purpose of taking away your pain." Zara huffed.

Now, this is an order. And although I'm not fond of them the familiarity of it is comforting on its own.

I nodded immediatly, ready to go and make food for us but Zara put his finger up again. His smile faltered and I wondered what I did wrong.

"I'll get it, I was actually just wondering if you had any requests." His smile returned.