Laurelle's Letter (Completed)

Chapter 23

Trigger Warning:
Sexual Violence, Abuse, Self-Harm, Suicide

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Agad akong nagpanic nang pagkagising ko iba na ang aking suot.

Did I got raped again? I questioned.

Paikot-ikot ako sa kwartong tinulugan ko at pilit na inaalala ang nangyari. I badly wanted to cry by the thought that maybe I got raped by the guy who stopped me from killing myself.

Did he stopped me from killing myself because he's looking for someone to satisfy him and it happened that he saw me at that very moment and then he did something on me when I was asleep?

But my body's fine, wala namang masakit sa akin except for the wounds from my wrists that I cut last night.

Agad akong nanghina nang makita ang mga malalalim na sugat dito.

Napa-upo ako nang maalala ang mukha ng lalaking sumagip sa akin kagabi. If I'm not mistaken, he was the guy that I saw a year or few months ago whom I found cute. He was kind to me so I guess he didn't do anything on me.

Nakita ko ang nakatupi kong damit sa side table na ngayon ay malinis na. Nagpalit na ako ng pants at hindi na muna pinalitan ang t-shirt dahit natatakot akong baka magalaw yung mga sugat ko.

Maybe he was there to kill himself too.
That's what I thought... and I was right.

"I can be your friend. You can live here. I won't hurt you, I promise." he said. His words were enough to make me smile.

I won't hurt you. These are the words that I badly want to hear from my father. Kung hindi niya lang sana kami sinaktan, buhay pa sana si mama at hindi sana ako binaboy ng demonyito kong tiyuhin.

Agad akong ngumiti upang maiwasan ang panunubig ng mata.

"I also lost both of my parents. I feel you."

"You know my mom?"

He told me about the story of how he met my mom. His parents were the doctors who helped my mom... but unfortunately, she chose to end her life and her sufferings.

I also felt bad when Lucas told me that his parents also died, they were murdered. He didn't told me the whole story and who killed his parents but I totally understand him because I know how hard it is to talk about your parents death.

After the conversation, he offered to give me a ride back-and-forth because I need to get some of my things in my apartment. I can't just stay here without giving anything.

I also accepted his offer because I am damn scared to live in my apartment because I know for sure that my evil uncle will show up again unexpectedly.

Sinabihan ko si Lucas na maghintay na lang sa sasakyan niya't ako na lang ang aakyat dahil baka hindi siya sanay sa maruming lugar. He's too clean to step in my dirty place.

Nilagay ko lang sa tatlong bag ang mga damit na dadalhin ko at ang mga cup noodles na stocks ko. Dadalhin ko na lang din 'to dahil hindi naman na muna ako titira dito, sayang naman kung hindi makakain.

Matapos kong ayusin ang mga gamit na dadahin ko sa bahay ni Lucas ay lumabas na rin agad ako ng apartment ko para hindi na rin mainip sa kakahintay si Lucas.