serendipity

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Without looking at the girl sitting on the other bench beside her. Chaewon decided to talk.

" Just so you know I hate being stared at "

Ever since she approach the other bench. She can see that you keep looking at her way, or if not you keep staring at her already.

She's not blind.

She can totally see you in her peripheral vision and you know yourself that you're not dumb to know that you're really staring.

Because you really are.

" Huh ? " You spoke before looking around. " Are you talking to me ? " What a lame excuse after getting caught.

" do I have anyone else to talk here ? " She rolled her eyes.

" I don't know. Maybe you're talking to yourself " You shrugged your shoulders and looked away.

" Do I look like talking to myself ? " Chaewon asked and Looks like someone's going to argue with each other tonight.

" All people do " You look at her. " We mostly talk to ourselves " and it's a fact.

Chaewon get it, so she nodded her head. You're right after all.

" What are you doing here ?. I just put you to sleep earlier " She really did, and she have no idea how did you arrived at the rooftop quickly when she just leave your room minutes ago.

You look at her before looking away. You don't know the answer yourself. You just let your feet drag you in the rooftop.

" I don't know ? " You answered unsurely. " I just let my feet take me here "

" How about you ? What are you doing here ? " This time it was you turn to ask her back her question.

" Oh " Just like you, Chaewon don't know what's her reason as well. " I need some fresh air to breathe "

After that, silence took over you and Chaewon. No one dared to talk after she answered your question, as if both of you want silence and peace of mind.

" Chaewon " You called her name. " Hmm ? " She hummed.

" Don't find this weird " Even if you and Chaewon don't get along at first.

You've been observing her very well, you can tell there's something wrong and that she have a problem.

Everyone all did, but knowing that she lost her parents that gives you an idea of what she's feeling.

" O-okay ? " She have no idea where this conversation going to.

" Don't let yourself get stuck on whatever painful happened to you, especially to your parents " You began while looking at her. " I have no idea what you went through but from what I can feel from what I can see, you've been badly affected by this "

Chaewon's eye brows furrowed. What do you mean by that ? What do you mean when you say this ?

Just what are you trying to pinpoint to.

" You think it's for your own good, but the truth is, It hinders you from doing everything that you want " as if Chaewon's not the only one relating it, because even you are relating on what you're saying.

You have no reason to brought this up, but you just felt like you have to, like you needed to.

Chaewon remained silent, her head already hung down staring at her both hands.

She finally understands what you're trying to say, and infact Chaewon felt like she need someone to talk about it today, tonight and she can't believe that these words are coming from a patient.

" Let me ask you a question " You look away. " This will clear things up and I want you to answer this truthfully "

With that Chaewon looked at your direction, only to see you gazing up at the sky and again she can feel her heart beating fast.

She tried to ignore, she's trying hard to ignore it but she just can't not when she know it have something to do with your presence.

She can't just pinpoint what does it have to do with you.

Chaewon waited for you to ask your question.

She already have an idea what is it and right know she's hoping it isn't what she thinks and she was wrong once she heard you said the question that she's not ready to answer.

" Are you happy ? " You gaze at her. " Like genuinely happy with where you are right now ? "

" I-" She couldn't think of an answer. Her mind went blank.

This is not what she signed up for, she didn't choose to be a psychiatrist just to get intergotated by her patient.

But she's thinking, Is she really happy ? She didn't like the job at first and until now she's still in the process on it.

There are times she enjoys the job, but mostly there are time she keeps thinking about the dreams she wanted.

This is not what she wanted to do till she gets old.

She have dreams, but she won't say that being a psychiatrist are stopping her to do it, because someone is making her to continue what she have right now.

You waited for Chaewon to answer your question and once she said her answer.

You weren't surprised at all, she's very obvious after all.

" No, I'm not "

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