serendipity

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With nutritious foods placed on a basket as Chaewon walks to the familiar room at a different hospital for the first time, she couldn't easen up what she's currently feeling.

She'll finally be able to see you and she won't deny how much she missed spending time with you.

She feels glad that you woke up on that day when she almost lost all her hope and just give up.

Clearing her throat as she enter the room located on the 2nd floor, it's interior is also different, very different from what style her parents have on the hospital that she's now taking care of, but that doesn't matter.

Because the first thing she noticed the moment she got in, inside was You. She was suddenly out of words seeing you in a very different condition.

" Hi " Chaewon greeted when she noticed you looking at her.

Putting up a smile on her lips, Chaewon occupied a chair as she sit beside the hospital bed where you're sitting at.

" How are you feeling ? " sounds like a casual conversation you would always have together.

If you can only say you're doing good then you would've already but because of all these wires connected to your body, if you'd say you're fine then that would make you an obvious liar.

" Feeling bored " first, you lost the ability to walk properly and now that you can walk again, it sucks that you can't leave the room for good because of the wires connected to you.

" You ? " you asked back. " How are you ? "

Chaewon flashed a small smile. " I'm fine " now she's the one who's being an obvious liar. " I don't like liars " You chuckled making her to do the same.

" You don't seem fine. What happened ? " No matter how big you could get worried to your own condition, you couldn't careless to get worried to the girl beside you.

You can see that she's tired, and the eyebugs below her eyes is making you wanting to scold her for it.

Chaewon let out a sighed. There's no point of her denying that she really isn't fine, but right now she is because she's finally beside you.

" I couldn't sleep for nights After the day you didn't wake up. " She looked at you. " I can't focus on anything or think of anything except you and your condition " that night she feels like she's about to gone crazy if you won't wake up or if she know you're not doing well.

" Chaewon " You called her and look away avoiding eye contact with the fellow as you ignored what she just said.

" Actually I have something to say and I know it's one of the questions bothering your mind " that was hard for you to start but in your current situation you need to tell the truth.

Her eyebrows furrowed. What question are you talking about ? She have lots of questions in her mind that's bothering her.

Which of them are you talking about.

" I know you're wondering how did I ended up in your hospital instead of a hospital like this " You were right, Chaewon thought.

This is one of the questions bothering her for a long time after she find out you had a CAD.

Why in a psychiatric hospital ? and not a ordinary hospital where you could heal yourself.

As she remained silent, she waited for you to continue what you're going to say next.

" It was true that I have a clinical depression, and the day I met you parents. They examined me for records purposes. Then they find out that I have CAD. At first I have no idea that I have. We just find it out at the same time " You were never aware about yourself having a CAD.

You only believe that you have when you started feeling nauseous, random headaches, vomiting and others back then.

You ignored it thinking it must be normal so you didn't dare to drink the medicines that they're drinking aside from the reason you hate the taste of it.

Then you realized it's just going worst.

" Then your parents asked me if I want to move on a hospital like this "

" And you stayed " Chaewon suddenly spoke. " But why ? " she wasn't best at things related to medical and health, at first.

But now she have the knowledge she knows how deadly CAD is and that the life expectancy for someone who has it is just limited.

Looking at her direction you gave her a small smile. " I just don't want to, even if your parents insisted that they're going to pay for the bill "

You were warned by her parents during those times but you refused to seek treatment and until now you still don't want it.

" Chaewon. I don't want to live " at first you really don't but then someone unexpected guest came to the hospital. " But then you came and gave me reason to do so "

" Then live " She said and you shake your head.

" Earlier the doctor came. They said Surgery is the only option since it was getting worst at every hour that passed and they have to act quick. " sounds like a pain for you.

" But I said give me time to think about it " you continued, you also asked for important details related to the surgery that will be performed. " I don't want it "

It was too much information for Chaewon to process but did she heard it right that you're rejecting the surgery ?

" Why ? " Only one type of surgery are available for CAD and that's like the only way to get things done knowing how dangerous it is.

" If it's about money, I could pay for it " She added but that's not what you care of. You don't need her money, you need yourself to fight longer.

" My survival rate for it is low " You looked at her.

" Chaewon, I won't make it. "

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