where a germophobe unknowingly steps out of his comfort zone when he couldn't help but find himself tangled up with a girl who is nowhere near his expectations of being 'clean'.
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sakusa couldn't sleep, how could he? did he just reject the only girl that made him feel something?
getting her off his mind was a difficult task that he was failing to do. she was all he could think of, how he wished to hold her wrist like he's done a hundred of times in his dreams but failed just cause he can't.
he realised he couldn't lose her just because he can't hold her, a thought, thousands of them, in fact crossed his mind. how he wanted to get better, get over his fear, reach out to her, hold her close. not just in dream, but in reality.
that night, he made himself a promise to do anything in his power to get over his fear, even if it required a therapist or a doctor, he would get better, he will, he should.
the morning came as slowly as it was riding a snail. every second counted and the night felt so heavy like it could fall any minute now on y/n. how y/n wished it happened so she could escape this pain. it was not only thee rejection but the disgusted sight sakusa showed every time. it was heart breaking. it was not like she wasn't ready to accept sakusa, she would accept him as he is as long as he at least says he likes her too.
she wished to disappear every time the thought of sakusa being disgusted by her crossed her mind. she wiped her cheeks as she got up from bed to get ready for school, just to realise it was Saturday. a sigh of relief escaped her mouth cause she was not ready to face sakusa.
whereas sakusa spent the entire night just thinking and planning how to leave his ocd behind or at least not let it affect his relationship, it made him realise how, it had already affected the relationships with the people he loved the most, but mostly failed to express, his parents and now y/n. all the time he's been hard on his parents or friends just because they weren't as cleaned as him. if he wanted y/n to accept him, he should accept her as she is too, completely.
he was ready for that, he prepared himself all weekend, on Sunday night, he called his mum.
"hi kiyoomi,is everything okay?"
"yes ma, just wanted to remind you and dad that i love you both."
on the receiving end, he couldn't hear anything for a minute, then a deep exhale, "we love you too, always." he could sense his mother smiling.
"goodnight, i have school tomorrow."
"yes, goodnight, eat well."
"you too, ma."
with that, easiness took over his chest as he lied down to fall asleep, and after a long long time he had no trouble sleeping.
