I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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Every day there were more questions and more uncertainties in my mind.

And my opinion and feelings towards Jimin became more and more confused.

I hate him. And it can't be any other way.

Or can it?...
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"Are you ready?" Jimin asked when I opened the doors for him.

"Yes, we can go."

We stood in the elevator. I looked out of the window and admired the city skyline.

"Can I know today's plan?" I turned to Jimin.

"Now we'll visit some historical and religious places. And then we'll go to the most fun place in the world, Disneyland. And we'll be there until late. And tomorrow morning we'll fly home. Because some meetings has been moved from the evening to the day."

"Disneyland?" My face lit up. "I've wanted to go there for years."

Jimin smiled weakly and we got in the car.

[...]

We visited some wonderful historical sites, museums, and temples. And even though I had a lot of filming to do, I still found the time to enjoy all the amazing sites.

When I was filming Jimin, he looked at the camera with such warm eyes, he smiled a lot.

Fuck... I wish he would look at me like that...

Shit. Why am I thinking about this?

[...]

We entered Disneyland. I felt like a kid. I felt like in a fairy tale.

I looked around me, with big eyes full of joy.

But I came back to reality and turned to Jimin.

"Sorry." I was embarrassed. I didn't want him to yell at me again or say something nasty.

I saw that Jimin was watching me. But this time with a different look than usual, there was neither despise nor anger in his eyes.

"It's all right. Take your time."

I was surprised by his reaction.

"You don't need to film everything. Take the most spectacular images and that's it." He turned around and started walking.

I turned on the camera and followed him, filming Jimin and the surroundings.''

[...]

"Are you scared of rides? Or you can handle them?" Jimin stopped at one big ride.

"It's been a long time since I've been on one. Neither like it nor dislike it." I lifted my head and looked at the enormously tall ride.

Fuck. It's scary.

"Let's go then." Jimin smiled and we got to the back of the line.

I pulled out my camera and filmed what the ride looked like.

Once inside the ride, I realized I was scared.

Fuck. How I was going to have to film everything.

I tried with all my inner strength to film Jimin. But it was difficult because it was really, really scary in some parts.

Suddenly Jimin took the camera from my hand and turned it off.

"It's okay." He smiled at me.

I put both my hands on the railing and tried to relax and enjoy the adrenaline rush.

[...]

"Are you hungry?" Jimin asked as we got off another ride.

"A little." It was already 4 pm. And we hadn't eaten anything yet.