I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"I asked your parents for forgiveness for all the suffering and pain I gave you. And I asked permission to be with you." He sobbed a few times.

"Oh, baby." A few tears rolled down my cheeks too.

I kissed him without waiting any longer.

I love him so much.

Apart from everything, I love him madly.

And he loves me.

Maybe our love can survive everything and blossom?
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"Shall we spend the night together?" Jimin asked as we left the cemetery.

"Sure, why not."

Jimin squeezed my thigh.

"I want to ask you something." Jimin looked at me shyly. "What does it mean that you slept with me last night? That our relationship is serious? That you're my girlfriend? Or was it just giving in to feelings and lust?"

"I don't know, Jimin." I sighed softly. "I want a serious relationship with you. And fuck it, let's try this." I covered my face with my hands.

Somewhere deep in my heart, I regretted saying it. I still lacked confidence in Jimin.

Jimin stopped the car.

"Come here." He unbuckled both of our belts and patted his lap for me.

I did so without asking any questions.

"I promise to try to change and be the best boyfriend you deserve. You deserve only the best things in life." Jimin started kissing my whole face. "I will try my best. I'll do anything to keep you by my side."

I kept my hands on his chest, tears gathering in my eyes.

"I can see how you doubt, how you don't believe that I can change, that I can control my jealousy scenes. But I don't want to disappoint you, to hurt you. I want you to believe in me with all your body and mind. I don't want to hurt you anymore. I will convince you that I can be better." He kissed me sweetly.

"Oh, Jimin. Yes, I have a hundred doubts in my head. But I'm trying to believe you. And I think I just need time and I'll start to believe. Prove it to me. Show me how you can change."

I put my arms around his neck and laid my head on his chest.

"Can we stay like this forever?" I whispered.

Jimin gently stroked my back, "I'm not going anywhere from your life."

Really?

Is Jimin really going to be in my life for long?

Will he be my boyfriend and I will be his girlfriend?

Will I enjoy his love for long?

Will I really see Jimin changing?

"You're my girlfriend." He kissed my hair. "I still can't believe it. I love you, Y/n. How I love you."

For some reason, I didn't say anything back. I just softly moaned and snuggled even closer to Jimin's body.

"Babe, we should go home." Jimin chuckled.

"Mmm... I don't want to. I want to stay like this." I mumbled.

"Oh, darling." He laughed out loud. "Do you want to sleep in the car?"

"Mhm."

"Baby." Jimin lifted my head and kissed my face. "Let's go, princess."

I smiled with almost closed eyes and went back to my seat. I buckled my seatbelt and immediately fell asleep.

[...]

"Did you understand everything? In one week, we fly to America for a tour of a few weeks. There will be 7 concerts." Main manager Minho said after a long meeting.