I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"Calm down, Y/n. You're on vacation, rest. Rethink everything. And I'll take care of him. Calm down. Everything will be all right. Rest, collect your thoughts, and come back to us." Taehyung's deep voice had a calming effect on me.

"Thank you again. You are the best."

"I know." Taehyung laughed with his deep laugh that made me smile too.

Dropping the phone on the free pillow, I turned off the light and drifted into a restless sleep.
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I was in Sydney for three more days.

I tried to relax and forget everything. But Jimin kept going through my mind.

I kept thinking about how he was, how he was feeling, and what he was doing.

But I tried to rest and clear my head as much as I could.

I visited beautiful places, learned about Australian culture and traditional dishes.

It was a really fun trip.

When I came out of the airport, I stopped for a minute. And I looked up at the cloudy sky. I was greeted by a gloomy Seoul.

I rushed home to get some rest and get ready for work. I told Minho that I would be back a few days earlier.

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Tired after the first day of work, I walked slowly towards my car in the HYBE parking lot.

It was late in the evening. Only a few cars were parked.

Suddenly, Jimin's car pulled up in front of me.

I screamed in fright and jumped back.

I hit the top of the car and kept walking towards my car, rolling my eyes.

"Y/n, wait!" I heard Jimin's voice.

But I didn't want to stop.

I didn't want to meet him.

I didn't want to look into his eyes.

I was angry at him. I was angry that he wanted to take his own life and that he was making me so afraid.

Besides, we had ended our relationship, so I really shouldn't be seeing him again now.

I need to avoid him as much as possible.

"Y/n..." Jimin gently grabbed my wrist.

"Let go of me I don't want to burst. Let me go." I said in a half-voice.

" Turn around... Please, Y/n..." Jimin was begging.

I sighed but turned back to him.

And my eyes were burning with anger.

"What do you want?" My voice was raised and echoed throughout the parking lot. "You idiot. Do you know how you scared me with your call when I was in Australia? How I felt being so far away from you and you were talking about killing yourself, doing something to yourself?" The tone of my voice kept rising. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. "I hate you. You are a fucking idiot." I started to knock on his chest with my hands. "When is this all going to end? This relationship of ours? Do I need to leave my job at HYBE, maybe even leave the city, the country? I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to be happy. But I have this feeling that we can't stop communicating, that we can't disappear from each other's lives." I shoved him hard in the chest away from me.

"Yes, I'm an idiot. An idiot who loves you madly and doesn't want to live without you." Jimin looked at me with eyes full of love.

"That's your problem, not mine. Leave me alone and try to deal with yourself. Because what you did that night really scared me."