I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"I'm still hoping you'll give me a chance to heal all my self-inflicted wounds. That you'll be able to let me in one more time and make you happy. That all the bad and depressing memories and feelings will fade away. And that you will no longer be in pain. I don't care how I feel. What matters to me is that you are happy."

"So maybe we need to get away from each other? Maybe then we could be happy again? Like before we met."

I stood up and walked away. I walked away from him, from the memories and the feelings.
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It was Sunday evening.

And it was time to go home.

We were no longer eight.

Jungkook and Yoongi had to leave early, there were problems with their new song.

For the rest of the weekend, Jimin stayed away from me, as I stayed away from him. So I had a fun weekend. I could relax.

"Who's going to bring our wonderful Y/n home? Unfortunately, I can't." Namjoon laughed as we gathered our things and stood by the cars.

"I will, I will bring Y/n." Jimin said calmly and came closer to me.

"Do you accept Y/n?" Taehyung asked.

I looked into Jimin's deep eyes. "Okay. There's not much difference." I said casually. "Let's go. I love that Porsche." I said hugging the rest of the members.

As we put our things in the trunk, Jimin opened the passenger door for me. I smiled politely and got in the car.

So many memories even in this car.

Good memories:

The first time Jimin made me drive his luxury car, even though I resisted because it was crazy expensive.

All the nice and romantic things he said to me and I said to him.

His voice still rings in my head: <I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you...>

I miss those three words.

I want to hear it again.

All the long journeys we took singing with all our hearts. When I was captivated by his voice, by his beauty and I just watched him with admiration in my eyes.

But there are also many bad memories in this car:

Our early work relationship. All the terrible things he used to say to me in the beginning.

Then our anger during the relationship. His jealousy scenes.

The shouting at each other...

"Are you all right?" Jimin's voice brought me back to reality.

I realized that the car was moving and we were on the highway.

"Oh, sorry." I laughed nervously. "I'm lost in memories."

"In our memories?"

"Yes. Everything that happened in this car. The good and the bad." Our eyes met for a moment. "But that doesn't matter anymore." I shook my head and turned to the window.