I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"Okay. Go to sleep, Jimin. It's all right. I'm not going anywhere." I smiled encouragingly.

"Really?" Jimin's eyes were still full of fear.

"Yeah. I'll be here when you get up. Let's sleep." I dipped my fingers into his hair. I knew it was soothing him.

Jimin closed his eyes and slowly his breathing calmed.

I didn't sleep myself until I was sure Jimin was asleep.
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A few weeks have passed.

As I wanted, Jimin is taking the time, not pushing me.

Apart from the fact that both Jimin and I are very busy, we find time to call each other or even meet.

Like tonight.

It was Thursday evening.

We decided to meet.

I don't know why, but I felt that we needed to meet today.

I arrived at his house.

We had dinner together and lay on the sofa and watched a movie.

Tonight I especially wanted to be with him. To feel him near me.

I snuggled even closer to him.

"Someone very clingy today." Jimin giggled and pulled me deeper into his embrace.

"Yeah... It's just how I feel today." I laughed nervously.

"It's okay. You know how much I love you and how much I enjoy your closeness." Jimin kissed my forehead.

"I know. And you know that I love you." I said quietly.

"I know." Jimin pulled away from me and looked at me.

"You know..." I sighed softly. "I think I'm ready to try again... You're doing much better. I can see how hard you're trying. I want to try again." I smiled shyly.

I love him so much.

I love him so much that it hurts.

Sometimes I probably don't even realize how much I love him.

My mind still can't understand that it's possible to love someone like that.

"Y/n..." Jimin's voice shook. "Are you serious?" His eyes were big, full of surprise.

"Yes." I giggled and fell into his embrace and kissed him fervently.

Jimin immediately returned my kiss.

We missed each other physically.

And there I was, lying half-naked on the sofa, Jimin hovered on top of me.

I moaned his name out loud.

Sex with Jimin was not just sex.

It was much more.

We were connecting not only physically but also spiritually.

The closeness and the way I feel when I do it with him, it's just unexplainable.

He is my everything.

And yet I couldn't imagine my life without him.

"I love you. I love you so much, Y/n. You make my life happy. Without you... I just wouldn't exist. My life is either with you. Or I don't need this life." He kissed me as we lay on the couch under the covers, breathless.

"I love you, too. With all your downsides. But I still love you madly."

"That's why you're so amazing. Even though you know all my flaws and imperfections, you still manage to love me. You still love me. That's why I know that what we have, we have forever."