I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"I guess it won't be very easy to change, but the psychologist has already made me think a bit. I think after working with him for a longer time, I should be a better person. And besides, could you go to the next appointment together? He said he'd like to talk to you and then to both of us. Do you agree?" Jimin shyly asked.

"Of course, Jimin. It's really not hard for me. And I think I could benefit from it myself." I smiled broadly to encourage him.

"Great. We'll go together after work the day after tomorrow." He kissed me again.

Then he cuddled next to me and hugged me.

"I am sleepy." I whispered yawning.

"Then goodnight, love." Jimin kissed my forehead.

"I love you." I whispered softly.
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"I like being in our bubble, just the two of us." Jimin kissed me on the forehead as we were lying on the sofa after dinner watching a movie.

"A day like today just shows how wonderful you can be. You just need to deal with that jealousy." I snuggled even closer to him.

[...]

I was sitting in the waiting room while Jimin talked alone with the psychologist.

"Come in, Y/n. He's waiting for you." Jimin came out of the room after a good half an hour.

I smiled at him and went inside.

"Hello, Y/n. Thank you for agreeing to talk to me." An elderly man smiled broadly at me.

"I'll do anything for Jimin and for our future." I smiled and sat down on the small sofa.

"Jimin has allowed me to be completely open with you. I'll tell you everything I think, some of it may seem unethical as a psychologist, but I think you deserve to understand the situation. Because according to Jimin, you're insanely dear to him. After our conversation, you will decide for yourself what to do next and what you will say to Jimin from our conversation." The psychologist smiled sadly and sat down on the armchair near me.

"Okay, I'm listening carefully." Panic was audible in my voice.

"Jimin has a serious psychological problem with jealousy. I can even detect problems with possessiveness. He feels that you belong to him as if you are his property. It's hard for him, it's crazy hard for him to see you with other men, and it's even harder for him to see you being touched by another man. This problem of his is rooted insanely deep in his subconscious, and it doesn't matter that he wants to be with you madly, he feels that he can do anything to have you with him, but it will be difficult for him to fix this problem. If he wants to fix it, he will need to work very hard and very long on it. I want to warn you that at any moment Jimin may burst out and make a scene of jealousy that you have never seen before. The longer he suffers now and tries not to explode, the more drama there could be when that happens. If you want to be in this relationship, you will have to get used to jealousy scenes until Jimin learns to deal with it. You have to learn how to divert his thoughts, his attention so that he does not get jealous. That is the only advice I can give you. But I want to say one more important thing. You love each other, I have no doubt. But you have past hurts and things are not great now either. It's quite understandable if you can't take the strain of being in such a relationship."

He probably didn't say anything I didn't know. What I hadn't thought about.

"I know it's a difficult relationship. And as far as past pain is concerned, I still don't think I have fully forgiven him." I looked down at my clenched fingers.

We talked for about 20 more minutes. He tried to help me understand that I had to let go of past grudges.

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We went back to Jimin's house.

"Thank you so much for going to the therapist. For doing it for me." Jimin came over and hugged me.