I hate you but... I love you| Jimin

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"Oh, Jimin. You're a fool. " I giggled through the tears. "But my fool." I wrapped my arms around Jimin's neck and hugged him. "I hate you but... I love you." I whispered in Jimin's ear.

Jimin pulled me away from him and looked at me with big eyes. "What did you say?" There was a surprise in his voice.

"I LOVE YOU." I giggled and smiled widely with tears in my eyes.
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"Fuck, Y/n. I'm the luckiest man on earth. Oh my god. I love you so much." Jimin's face glowed with a smile never seen before. And he kissed me gently.

"But that doesn't mean anything. Nothing at all. It doesn't mean that I'm yours and you're mine. If you keep acting so toxic, there can't be anything serious between us. If you keep acting so jealous, I won't be with you. I certainly don't intend to suffer in a toxic relationship in which I would be afraid to meet my male friends. And you know that I am in contact with a lot of men. I probably have more male friends than female ones. And if you can't trust me and not make constant jealousy scenes, then nothing will happen. Then, unfortunately, apart from the deep love we feel for each other, we will not be able to be together. That is my condition. Deal with your anger and jealousy. And then I will be yours. It is that simple. I am not asking for some impossible thing. Just get your head right, go to a psychologist or something. I don't know. Just know that if you don't sort it out, we won't be together." I looked at him sadly.

Because I have to admit, I have little hope that he will be able to change, because his jealousy scenes are totally out of control.

"Y/n..." Jimin's breathing became ragged. "I promise to do whatever it takes to keep you with me, to keep us together. I love you madly and I don't want to live without you. I don't want any other woman in my life. Only you or you. Only you or I will never want another woman in my life. You are the only woman I need." Jimin took my face in his hands and looked me straight in the eyes.

I knew he was telling the truth. But I didn't know if he was strong enough to change.

"I hope you are right. I hope you are able to change. And stop breaking my heart, stop making me feel bad. You won't make me cry and scream and not sleep at night anymore. Because I am very tired. I'm so tired of all this nonsense and if something insanely bad happens one more time, I doubt I'll be able to swallow the pain again and move on with our relationship. Then I would be moving on, but unfortunately without you." A few uncontrollable tears rolled down my face.

"Tomorrow I will do two things. First, I'll buy you a new phone and second, I'll make an appointment with a psychologist. I think I really need help. Because I don't want to lose you." A few tears rolled down Jimin's face too.

I reached out my hand and gently wiped the tears away. "I still believe in you for now. Please appreciate that."

Jimin took me by the waist and pulled me close to him. "You have no idea how precious you are to me. There aren't even words to describe my feelings."

Jimin started kissing my neck. And went lower and lower. A silent moan left my lips.

"Louder, darling." Jimin growled in my ear.

Since I was dressed quite revealingly, Jimin had excellent access to my body and my skin.

"Do you have any idea what an amazing body you have? How wonderful you smell?" Jimin's wet kisses made my skin shiver.

Jimin's hands caressed my hips, my thighs, my butt. I just melted at his touch.

"Jimin..." I pushed him back.

Jimin looked at me questioningly.

"I'm exhausted, I want to sleep. Please, let's go to sleep." I stood up from the couch and walked toward the bedroom.