Heart Misplaced

Chapter 30

On his way to the ranch, he decided to pass by Tshiamo's place. She had just gotten off the phone with Motheo after having a talk that lasted almost an hour. He was calling to apologize and explain why he had been the way he was. Obviously making himself seem like the Saint.

In the call Motheo never mentioned how he had wronged anyone but had many excuses for his crazy behavior toward a her. Tshiamo had gotten to a point of not caring especially after he saw first hand what this man is capable of. She knew that all of the things he was saying to her could 100% be lies.

A part of her felt sorry for him and then the guilt of being with his best friend started to knock in. I'm still married to this man, she thought to herself and I can't return sin with sin.
She felt like what her and Tiego had was an abomination especially considering the fact that they're both married.

Tiego knocked on the door and she opened. "Hey baby". He said to her and she just smiled, letting him in. "Is everything okay?". He saw right there and then that something was wrong with her. She just shook her head and whan he came closer to give her a kiss, she just moved her face.

"Tshiamo, do you want to what's going?..and don't say nothing because I can see that your not okay. Will you please talk to me?" He was trying not to get irritated. When they last spoke she was fine and looking forward to seeing him and then when he gets there, she's all cold towards him.

He knew she wouldn't just turn on him for no reason, something is definitely up."Tiego, a thought just came in my mind about our relationship and I just...I feel like what we are doing is wrong....I...I mean we are both married and... And you and Motheo are best friends. I'm finding it hard to want to continue being happy with you while we're both cheating on our spouses". She spoke while standing up.

Tiego looked at her as if she was insane. He took a deep breath "Come here" He said to her and she walked over to him and sat next to him. Tiego turned to her "first of all, Tshidi and I are divorced...its final.. And when coming to the matter of your husband who was my best friend, can we agree that this man does not give a fuck about you?... Or maybe you need some kind of validation or proof?.

"Baby, listen to me. I love you Tshiamo and I'm not at a point where I'm willing to let you go because I'm afraid of hurting Motheo... Fuck him!. If you want all of this to stop, let that be on you and not because of him.
If he was the one who motivated you to see our relationship in another way then be clear to me about the decision you want to make. Because I am not going to waste my time investing in someone who is in love with another. I've been there and I'm done with that shit". He said to her, adamant that he won't be playing second pick to her.

She looked at him and didn't know what to say. Motheo had gotten to her once again. Tiego took her hand "Do you love me?" he asked her and she nodded. "Do want us to continue with our relationship... Do you want to be with me?" she looked down and he lifted her head up with his finger.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" He asked her and a tear fell on her cheek as she nodded again. Tiego let her go. He stood up and left without another word.
Watching him walk away from her, she didn't even stop him. She cried untill she fell asleep on the couch.

She knew she made a big mistake but she was driven by the good girl in her.

*****
Tshidi had an appointment on Monday morning with her doctor and she had asked that they run a paternity test for Tiego as she felt that it was also fair for him to know the truth and have a way forward.

The two bumped into each other at the parking lot. "Hey". Tshidi greeted with a smile "Hi". He replied, giving her a hug. "How are you feeling... Are you ready?" He asked her. "I'm alright...alot better than I did a week ago... So, I guess that's good right?" she said.