Open Marriage (ON HOLD)

Chapter 46

(Monday, June 21, 2021)

(Sebastian's POV)

Blog Post:

Dear Patrons,

It's week three of Sea Bass Mondays. Ooh, I think I like that. Today, I come to you live from New York City. I'm on the other side of the country, relaxing for a few days till Craig works my ass off. I forgot how much I miss this city. I mean, there is so much going on here. It is the city that never sleeps. Probably not the place for me because I'm sure I didn't sleep much this weekend. I spent it with my boys, living the good life. I really do have a good life. I have amazing friends, family, and all-around good people surrounding me. I am even starting to feel welcome with all of you. Been about two weeks, and it feels like I've been part of you all for a lifetime. It did feel good to talk to Tyler about a contract signing this week. I still have time left with my agency, but I look forward to working with you if that's what the future holds.

So I was trying to decide if I wanted to do this every week. I have set the bar high for myself these last few weeks by sharing my amazing words. I know sometimes greatness comes out of my mouth, and I can't help it. I have found a new sense of confidence over the last few years that I owe to Mackie and Evans. I can't take myself too seriously; it's just not a way to live my life. I owe a lot to those men. I don't know what I would do without them. Being part of this franchise has been a huge blessing. It brought me to this right here.

This past week has shown me that everything you do will be judged, analyzed, and talked about, even when none of those people know the truth about your life. It is the life we choose when we accept a job in the entertainment business. It's not something you ever get used to, though.

Going out on the water this week showed me that sometimes I really wish I had a little privacy. Reading the news calling Dollface "my flavor of the month" didn't sit well with me. I mean, do any of them actually know who I am? I'm not someone that has a flavor of the month. We all know that used to be Evans, but it was more like the flavor of the day or week. OH, fuck, he might kill me for telling his secrets.

I did get a call from my mother this week about what the tabloids said. It was probably the most awkward conversation you'd ever want to have with your mother. How do you explain to her the relationship you have with the incredibly beautiful woman. She is your girlfriend, but she is also married to a fellow actor, who she also has a relationship with. It's a lot for my mom, who is very old school when it comes to relationships. I explained to her, that this is where my life is and this is the woman I want to be with. When you care about someone, you take the time you get with them. Evans and Mackie are going to give me shit after this for being so sappy.

I learned this week you have to go after what you want, and it doesn't matter what anyone says. The media isn't going to take control of my life, because they don't know what goes on behind my closed doors. No one truly knows what goes on in your life, unless you let them in. Wow, I'm getting really deep today. I don't know why; maybe because talking to my mom gets me thinking more about my life and where I want it to go. I want to make my mother proud in all I do; whether it's my work, my personal life, and just being her son.

My beautiful girl entered the room after taking a nap, so I'll talk to you all this coming week. Hope to see many of you in the upcoming week, when I return to LA in a couple of days. I still can't believe that I'm part of your world. I am truly blessed. I understand why Chris loves you all like family. Because all of you are fucking amazing.

Till next time,

XOXOXO, Sea Bass

"What are you doing?" Y/N questioned, leaning against the doorframe of my living room, trying to hold back a yawn.