~Christian POV~
~2 minutes after Rome dropped her home~-
I got inside my room with a huge smile on my face. My happiness at 100 at the moment. I went to my closet and removed my shoes and switched into my pajamas. I heard my door open and I had a strong feeling that it was mama.
"Hey mama." I might of said way too happily. She definitely knew.
"Hi sweetie." She comes over and kisses my forehead and rubs my hair slowly as if she's trying to see if anything is different. "I'm sorry baby."
She's apologizing.
Mama is apologizing.
"For what mama?" My heart beat quickened at how sad her eyes looked.
"For hurting you."
I watched a tear silently drop from her eye and I brought my thumb up to wipe it away. "Mama, it's okay."
"You seem happy Christian. What's going on? Did you finally go back to God?" She questioned and I know she meant no harm by her remark. She didn't say it in a backhanded way. It was more of a hopeful way although I still have no hope. I still don't want God.
I didn't want to tell her about Rome because the relationship is so fresh and if it doesn't work out between us, I would be able to accept it more than if my mom was to come up and ask how he is doing constantly.
"Sure." I lied through my teeth as a fake smile appeared on my face. She hugged me so tight as if she never wanted to let go. "Thank You God." She started calling out. "We need to pray. Come here." She grabbed my hand and took me to Iyanna's room so we all can pray.
"Iyanna, we are going to pray, come here." Iyanna looked at me and immediately knew that something was forced. Maybe the look on my face gave it away, but my smile was extremely forced from how it was naturally there earlier.
We all stood up and held hands as mama began her prayer.
"Dear Lord, I thank you so much. My prayer has been answered as always. You are so great and almighty and powerful. You helped Christian lord. I can't thank you enough. You are a good God. My savior. My peace maker. Lord thank you for placing your hands on her. Please continue to lead her, guide her and protect her in Jesus name I pray, Amen."
I looked over at Iyanna and she shook her head in disappointment for having mama think that I went back to God. Iyanna knew the reason why I was so happy when she met Rome that day, but I did clarify that we were just friends at the time, now things are different. He asked me to be his girlfriend and I am happy about it.
I wanted to hold onto this happiness for a little longer before I am confronted by Iyanna on why I seem so happy. Can a girl not just be happy? Well, now that I think about it... no. I can not be happy.
I went back to my room and texted Rome that I got home safe and then held my phone to my chest mesmerizing our moments together. I know that this is all just the honeymoon phase, but honestly I would rather hang onto this honeymoon phase as long as I possibly can than anything else. If it gives me the chance to remain happy I would happily take it.
