worth it • rafe cameron

chapter 14

kaylins pov:

i ran through the crowed lookjng for jj. i was crying and the party still wasn't dying down. i finally found him lighting a joint. he turned and looked at me surprised. "kay are you okay? what happened?" he asked me as he ran over to hug me.

i managed to choke out the words, "i relapsed and broke up with rafe." jj looked at me and said, "do you want to talk about it?" i nodded and pulled him into a guest room.

we both sat down on the bed and i explained everything. "i'll fucking kill him for cheating on you kay." jj said sounding pissed. "no, jay it's okay. we can't be together anyway. we caused each other to relapse and we just bring out the worst in each other. its just hard because i love him so much, and i know what happened last time we broke up."

he sat there for a minute before giving me a hug. "you were too good for him anyway." he said and i smiled a little. "shit" i said remembering i had no where to stay. since i was staying with rafe i never bought a new house. "what?" jj asked me. "its nothing. just thought of something i guess."
"jj?" i said and he responded, "whats up?"

"can you come with me to go get all my stuff. its all around the house." i said and jj nodded.

i sighed and stood up. i grabbed a plastic bag from the kitchen and pushed by all the people. i walked up to rafe's room with jj. "is he in there?" jj asked me. "i'm not sure, can you just wait here incase he is?" i asked and jj nodded.

i took a deep breathe and walked into the room. rafe was laying on the bed and staring at the ceiling. i ignored him and took all of my things out of his draw. "where are you going to go?" he asked me, but didn't look at me.

"i'm not sure." i responded and finished packing up all my stuff. "you can stay here if you want" rafe said slowly.

"no i can't rafe. we just broke up and i'm not letting myself come crawling back to you."

he looked blank, which scared me. "how many lines did you do?" i asked him concerned. he ignored me. "rafe, how many lines did you do?" i repeated. "nine." he said and just laid there.

"oh my god rafe why would you do that. i thought you were going to overdose when you did 6." i said holding back my tears. he hurt me but i still cared about him.

he kept ignoring me and i decided i couldn't leave him here alone for the night. i walked out of the room. "jay, can you shut down the party? i'm just going to stay here tonight." he reluctantly agreed. "why are you staying with rafe, you guys broke up." he asked me.

"he had way too much coke. i wouldn't forgive myself if i left and something happened to him." jj nodded and went and shut down the party. once everyone was gone i went into the bathroom. i fell on the floor crying. i wasn't even sure why i was crying, i guess over rafe.

a minute later the door opened and rafe walked in. he didn't say anything, but he sat down next to my and gave me a hug. the silence helped honestly. i rested my head on his chest and cried for a long time. once i stopped crying i finally said something.

"i need you rafe." i said and he just hugged me tighter. "i just want you to explain why you would sleep with vanessa. it just doesn't make sense, i thought we were doing good." i said.

"i didn't want to. she kissed me and i pulled away. she kept telling me to fuck her and eventually i gave in when she said she had coke. i wasn't thinking straight. i was drunk and high and once i realized what was going on, we stopped. we didn't even end up fucking. i pushed her off me and kicked her out. you just need to understand i wasn't thinking clearly kay." he explained.

"did she force you rafe?" i asked him. he shook his head and responded, "no, more like she just manipulated me into it."

before i fell asleep, i found myself thinking, was he worth it? was rafe worth everything i'd been through? and right as i leaned in to give him a kiss, i knew the answer. he was worth everything.

AN: tgis story is discontinued bc i rlly hate it