AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hi guys! First off I want to give a shoutout to @OneDayWithOneDirecti and her friend Mary for reading this! And second I'm warning you this chapter gets mushy but don't worry because next chapter will be humorous. Thanks again for reading, voting and messaging me! Please leave comments and what not below!
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Time: Freaking Early. Date: I don't even know. Location: Back at the hideout.
We left before one in the morning. Before I knew it we were right back at our hideout. I stormed off to my room without talking to anyone. I slammed my door and put the board across it.
"What happened?" Tink asked worriedly.
"Peter is pissed at me." I replied flopping down on my bunk.
"What is it this time?" She asked in a bored tone.
"No need to show your enthusiasm." I half smiled then continued, "I got taken on board to Hook's ship and he was actually really nice to me. You know, Hook's son not the original Hook. Anyway, so I came back and was wearing, well, this and Peter heard that I was in his room and he jumped to conclusions. I'm not a complete slut you know? Only a little bit I swear. So like I was saying, he got pissed at me and then maybe made me mad enough to say I was on Hook's side. And now he's even more pissed but he's the one who jumped to conclusions in the first place!" I finished.
"You talk soooo fast." Tink laughed but then turned to seriousness. "You seriously don't get it though."
"What am I not getting?" I asked frustrated.
"Peter is so upset because he loves you. He really proper loves you." She said as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
"Of course he does, he loves all of us." I huffed. Tink shook her head.
"When you love someone, when you really love them, they are the most important thing. Peter thinks that anything bad that happens to you is his fault. That's just how he is. He doesn't understand that he can't control everything. Camo, he loves you so much. Please don't be mad at him." She finished. I sat up and sighed.
"I have to talk to him, don't I?" I asked but already knew the answer. Tink just flew up to her mini house above my bunk and didn't respond. I walked over to my closet and changed out of my dress into some sweatpants and a crop top that I sleep in. I pulled my hair out of the braid Tiger Lily put in my hair a few hours earlier and it came down in curls all around me. I quietly snuck out of my room and down to Peter's. His door was closed but it wasn't locked. When I walked in I saw Peter with his head in his hands as he sat on the bed and his shoulder were shaking slightly.
"Peter?" I asked as I shut the door behind me. He turned away from me and wiped his eyes but when he faced me again I saw that his eyes were red and his cheeks were still a bit wet.
"I'm sorry." He whispered. I couldn't stand the distance between us so I ran over to him and held him in my arms.
"I'm sorry too." I whispered. He threw his arms around me and brought me so close to him that I could hear his heart best in the silence.
"I shouldn't have left you today. I can't believe I left you again. I left you and you needed me." He said. I held him tighter.
"Sometimes people need to be left alone." I told him. "They need to see what they can do by themselves. They can't be babied all of the time Peter."
"I've left you so many times." He said pulling back from me. I let my arms fall to my sides. He cupped my face in his hands. "You needed me and I left you." I stared into his eyes and saw the pain so clearly.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Every time I dropped you back off on earth, when I left you when you were ten, after the party, after the pills and then today. I left you." He said removing his hands from my face.
"What party?" I asked. "Peter, what are you saying?"
"Do you remember anything about the party in that big brick house on the hill? I think the person's name was Jenna or something that was having the party." He inquired, his voice strained.
I thought back and knew the only thing I remember about the party is what I had told Nibs earlier. I lost my virginity at the party to...a...stranger. No. I felt like I could have fainted.
"Peter..." I started but couldn't even finish. There's seriously no way in hell.
"You remembered me. I was going to come back to get you and go to Neverland because the boys said they were okay to go back. You told me you loved me. What I didn't know is that you were wasted and high and who knows what else. But, I...I thought you really did love me so I didn't object when you took my up to the guest room...and..." He struggled to say the rest.
"We...you and I...Oh my God." I stuttered. This was not happening. Peter and I? All of those times back here at Neverland when things felt familiar. Why he had been so protective when I was with other guys. Everything made sense. "Why did you leave that time?" I asked.
"Because I'm an idiot. I was scared. I wasn't sure what you would do. I thought you would hate me in the morning. Or worse, you wouldn't remember me. I should have stayed. I shouldn't have done that with you. I...I can't fix what happened." He ran his hands through his hair. "Please don't hate me."
"I don't regret what happened." I finally managed to say.
"What?" he asked.
"I'm happy it was you. I don't hate you. I wish you wouldn't have left me." I felt like a five year old saying all of these small sentences but I was still having trouble facing the truth. "Is that how you knew about the pills the next day?"
He nodded.
"Please never try to hurt yourself again. You mean too much Camille." He looked at me and for the first time I realized I had tears pouring down my cheeks. Peter was tearing up too.
"I promise." I said choking back a sob.
He wrapped his arms around me and held me as we both cried. I let it all out; all of the anger and sadness from when my brother became paralyzed, when I turned away from everyone, when I lost everything. I cried for all of those years without the boys. I cried looking back on how much I hated myself. I cried for the hurting boy next to me and how much pain I cause him. I cried until I fell asleep in Peter's arms.
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Time: 10:06 A.M. Date: I've lost track in Neverland. Location: Peter's room.
I woke up and felt a pounding in my head. It took me a second or two to get out of my early morning haze. Peter had just woken up too. He smiled when he saw me.
"I think my arm is asleep." He laughed. I realized I was laying on one of his arms so I shifted around so that I wasn't anymore.
"Last night was quite a night." I sighed with a small smile. Peter sighed too.
"You could say that." He replied.
"Are we good Peter?" I asked.
"Of course." He said.
"And Peter?" I continued.
"Yes?" He asked.
"You know I love you right?" I asked. He smiled.
"I know. I love you too." He said and if I wouldn't have been listening closely I wouldn't have heard when he added, "More than you'll know."
