Pretend (johnnyboy & curtis sister x cherry)

Chapter 29: Breakdown

Two-Bit drops Johnny and me off at home at around eleven. We go into our room and I flop down onto my bed.

"I'm too tired to even take my makeup off," I mumble, but Johnny literally has super sonic hearing so he heard me.

"You'll get acne if you don't take your makeup off." He warns.

"How do you know that?"

"I sometimes read your magazines when I get bored or I can't sleep. I've learned a lot."

"Wow, Johnny I'm impressed."

I go into the bathroom to wash my face. I look into the mirror and am disgusted by what I see. I hate my face. I'm not pretty like Cherry. Cherry wouldn't like me even if she was gay. No one wants an ugly girlfriend. No one wants me. No one will ever want me. I'll be lonely forever. Johnny will get a boyfriend and I'll still be lonely. Ponyboy and Cherry will get married and I'll still be lonely. Nobody wants me. Nobody wants me. I start crying and more negative thoughts flood into my head. It turns into a full-on breakdown and I curl up into a ball on the floor. After crying for god knows how long, I hear a small voice say my name. It's Johnny.

"Come on Lavender, let's go to bed." He says and I get up and follow him back to our room. I go to help him onto his bed. Then I get into mine and start crying again.

"Lavender?"

"Yeah, Johnny?"

"Come over here." I get up and go lay on his bed with him. I snuggle into him and cry into his shirt. He doesn't even ask me why I'm crying, which I appreciate. He just holds me and strokes my hair until I fall asleep.

"I wish I had a girlfriend", is the last thing I mumble before I drift off to sleep.