I hate loving you - Eddie Munson

"you're a hell-fire now, we look after each-other"

The rest of my night is spent thinking about him, his smile, his lips the electric feeling I get when he's around. But also the pain and hate that lingers in the air. He's never looked at me in that way before, did he think it was some sort of sick game trying to get in my head so that he could break me? Well that's not happening I won't let him control me like that.

I hear a car pull up outside but think nothing of it, i assume it's my mum or one of her new boyfriends. However stones start to be thrown at my window. When I look out I am shocked to see Jason standing on the path leading to my house.

"What the fuck do you want" I say quietly staring at him "go back to Chrissy"
"Come down here" I look at him confused, but close my window and head down the stairs, I cross my arms against my chest when I feel the cold air consume my body.
"What are you doing here"
"What the fuck are you doing hanging around with the freak?" He looks angry.
"You have no right coming here and telling me who I can and cannot hang out with"
He looks at me and laughs "Let's stop playing around Jess. You knew I was cheating on you"
"What do you mean?"
He looks at me "Since the start babe"
A tear fills my eyes "and you wonder why I don't hang with you"
I push him aside and begin running down my road crying, I have no idea what I'm doing, I'm just running.

Tears have filled my eyes so much I can no longer see, I carry on until I hit into someone.
"Woah are you okay?" He says
"I'm- I'm" I say nothing, his arms wrap around me pulling me in close, I sob into his chest. Only to look up and realise it's Eddie.
His hand runs through my hair and he rests his chin on my head.
"Hey, hey" he pulls me back and bends down so he is at eye level with me "what's wrong" he wipes a tear from my cheek.
"Jason" Eddie rolls his eyes.
"I really don't get you Jess, why do you let that piece of shit effect your feelings?"
"I loved him Eddie, I really did, and, and" I take in a deep breath trying to not cry "he was cheating on me, right from the start" I look up into his eyes.

He says nothing and just pulls me back into his chest. I wrap my arms around him and squeeze him tightly. He glides his hand up and down my spine, I can feel his cold rings on my skin. Goosebumps spread across my body.
"You're cold" he says, I look up and nod at him unable to form words. Instantly he removes his denim jacket and flings it around my shoulders.
He looks into my eyes, "come on", he wraps his arm around my shoulder leading me down the road.

We get to the entrance of his trailer "I don't want you being on your own tonight" he says. Why is he being so nice to me?
"No I will go home I don't want to bother you"
He looks at me "I won't allow that I'm afraid" he practically pushes me into his home.
I look around, it's exactly as I had expected, empty cans on the coffee table, rather dark furniture. He opens annother door, his room, I walk in and my eye instantly falls onto his electric guitar thag hangs on his wall.
"She's a beauty isn't she" he whispers walking up to the instrument putting one of his hands on it.
"I didn't even know you played" he looked at me with a confused expression.

"Look at me, what do you think I do in my spare time" I laugh slightly and carry on looking around. Rock posters on the wall, dirty washing on the floor. I turn around as he jumps onto his bed, he pats the mattress beside him signalling me to sit down.
"I'll play you a song if you want" he rips his necklace from his neck and strums the instrument.
"Okay" I smile sitting down next to him. He plays a song, it takes my mind off of Jason and everything else. Eddie is so different when on his own. I smile at him, which makes him smile.
"You're really good" he looks embarrassed.
"Here" he stands up and opens a drawer throwing a pair of pjama bottoms at me. I look at him confused.
"Well you can't walk home at this time of night, and those jeans won't be comfy to sleep in will they?"
I smile standing up.
"Look away then"
"Don't flatter yourself"

I slip out of my jeans and put on the pyjamas. I tie the draw string as tight as I can, they still sit low waisted but they are extremely comfortable so I cannot complain.
"Okay" I say looking at him, he turns his head and his lips part slightly. I pose jokingly to get out out this awkward situation, which makes him laugh. I jump back onto his bed and lie my head down on his pillow.
I sigh and turn my head to look at him.

"Can I ask you a question?" He looks at me and nods slightly "why are you being so nice to me? I'm horrible to you all the time"
He shrugs and turns to me "you're a hell-fire now, we look after each-other"
I smile, I feel included, wanted.
"You aren't what I expected Munson"
"You mean to say I'm not a freak?"
"Don't get ahead of yourself freak" he smiles sliding down onto his pillow. "Who knew there was this side to Eddie Munson"
He smiles again moving a piece of hair away from my face, and wipes his thumb along my eye, presumably getting rid of the mascara around my eye. I rest my head on his chest, he wraps his arm around my body, i slowly fall asleep still close to him.