All I've ever wanted

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Camila POV:

It's been three hours and so far this car ride has been okay.

Okay meaning the boys laughing and acting like nothing happened earlier this morning, which is a good thing.

Sigh, I can't get in between these boys. I mean yeah I've know Sean forever but I can't do that to them. Friendship is important and without friends what would you have?

Loneliness. No one deserves that.

However, you can still have many friends and be lonely like I am.

Honestly I just keep thinking about this morning. I was full on naked infront of Sean and he didn't notice my cuts. I have cuts in between my thighs, they're light pink and some white ones. Did he see them and decide not to say anything?

"Hey Cami are you good? You've been quiet the whole ride do you need me to drive the rest" Sean offers. Sean is sitting in the backseat while Sebastian did get shot gun.

"Uh no I'm okay just have a lot on my mind"

Silence.

"Your destination is thirty minutes away, keep going straight ahead" google maps says from my phone.

I sigh.

"How exactly did this happen between you guys if you don't mind me asking?" Sebastian asks. And there is goes.

Uhhhhh how the hell do I say I wanted you but went to someone else and now I feel like crap? You don't, so you lie.

"We got drunk and hooked up one night after the bar like a year ago. Last night though, was random and...." I trail off because I don't know what to say.

"Last night was just sex." Sean finishes my sentence for me.

Ouch. What about this morning then?

Ugh who was I kidding getting butterflies for men who sleep around. I shake my head and put music on to drown out my sorrows.

Sebastian coughs. "Fue solamente sexo para ti tambien? What is it sex only for you too?

I turn my head to look at Sebastian and he's already looking at me.

Sean put his headphones on and is listening to music on his iPad.

"Con el o contigo?" With him or with you?

~

We arrived at the cabin twenty minutes ago. It's a beautiful house on the lake with four garages and a boat right on the dock. A big tree house and a long driveway. Sebastian gave us a tour, the house has five bedrooms, seven bathrooms, a game room, an indoor pool, a jacuzzi on the top deck, a bar, living area, dining area, a huge kitchen, and a laundry room.

Let's just say this is not your typical cabin.

I'm staying in one the master suites, we all have to sleep in groups so Liam and Melanie, Bren and Lexie, Penelope and Yasmine, Zac and Sean and I guess I'm alone? I don't know. I don't really want to sleep in the same room with any of the boys after this morning and what Sean said in the car. I know last night was just sex but it still hurt for him to throw me around like if I meant nothing to him. He didn't even look bothered by it and it's almost like he was enjoying instigating problems between Sebastian and I.

I don't know where Sebastian is sleeping but if he does sleep in the same room as me, there's a couch in the room and he can take it. Or I go stay on the couch downstairs.