All I've ever wanted

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Camila POV:

For the past three days, we've been enjoying our time together in Italy.

Enjoying the pool during the day, skinny dipping in the ocean at night.

He also took me sight seeing on a sailing boat and shopping around a little town near by, we had amazing food at a restaurant hidden in the hills, and then we would come home and have some really incredible sex.

Everything is different now. Our feelings are heightened, no secrets in between us anymore.

Well except one.

I haven't told him about the miscarriage and I'm terrified of how he'll react because bringing it up will have dark thoughts in my head and some scary times I went through when that happened.

I'm not sure I'm ready to let him know. It's painful and he's been so happy despite his dad being a complete asshole the other night. We haven't talked about his family and the whole mafia thing.

When he told me, I was shocked but not really. I always had a slight instinct that his family was involved in the mafia. I've joked about it with him a couple of times and he would act weird and laugh it off. But now looking back, it was so fucking true. It makes sense though, they're billionaires, Italian, good looks, all the security detail with the guns. I knew instantly when I saw them.

Was I terrified? Fuck yeah.

I love him way too much to let him go though.

Although, his mom is the sweetest. I don't know how these angry men always have the sweetest women but she deserves the world. Sebastian adores his mom and I love the relationship he has with her. He's told me so many stories that involve her growing up here. If I were to ever have a son, I would hope he would love me like the way he loves his mom.

Today is thanksgiving. We have two days left of thanksgiving break and then it's back to school.

Today is also the day I will meet his whole family. I'm nervous and my anxiety is on a high right now. My stomach has been acting weird the past few days, I thought it was just stress related or maybe the food from being in Europe but I'm not sure.

I've been getting migraines everyday and dizzy spells. I really don't know what it could be.

I'm getting dressed right now for the dinner at the ball. I'm wearing a strapless red dress that reaches my ankles with a high slit above my thigh. I'm not wearing panties because of the slit or a bra. Wait till Sebastian finds out he's going to flip.

I'm curling my hair wearing it half up half down when Sebastian walks into the room. I'm speechless.

He's wearing an all black suit with a black shirt with a few buttons unbuttoned showing his tattoos and chest hair. He has rings on his fingers and smells divine. His hair is messy but put together and has on shiny black dress shoes.

My man

I know I'm drooling but can you blame me?

He clears his throat and I stop gawking at him and continue curling the last strands of my hair.

"You look handsome" he winks at me when I tell him and shut the curler off. I get up from the chair I was sitting on in front of the vanity in the bathroom and go to put my shoes on. I grab the heels from inside the box that Sebastian bought me today and sit on the edge of the bed.

"Help me?" I ask and bite my lip.

"Anything for you" he bends and puts on my black louboutin shoes. The red bottoms match my dress perfectly. I gulp when he presses a kiss to my ankles and leans in to peck my lips.