More Than Anything | Bellarke (ENG)

Chapter 16

Clarke, Octavia...

If you're reading this, it means I'm dead.

Everything happened so fast. The day I woke up after operation was one of the best days of my life. I was glad to see you all together. So smiling and happy. At that time, everyone, including me, thought it was all over. That since the tumor was excised, this whole nightmare is finally over. Well... As it turned out, we were very wrong.

Doctors said that there were some complications during the operation. That's why I was in the hospital for so long. I felt really great in the first three days. I felt like I was coming back to life, but... It was completely different.

Later the pains returned. I didn't tell you anything about it so as not to worry you. I also forbade my parents not to tell you anything, so please don't be angry at them. They did it because of me.

I underwent further tests. It turned out that the tumor was growing again...

Doctors didn't give me much time, and the next operation might not work either.

I went through various examinations and the doctors consulted each other wanting to do something, unfortunately... They couldn't do anything.

It turns out that this was my fate... You can see it was all supposed to end this way.

And know that I have no regrets.

I've had a wonderful life... I've been surrounded by people I sincerely love.

Clarke, Octavia... You were never just friends to me. You were like sisters to me, you became my family. I loved you... And I still love you.

I know you must be angry with me now for not telling you anything... I'm sorry.

But I've seen you so happy. Octavia, you found happiness with Lincoln, and I wish you all the best.

Clarke...

My dear, Clarke... Do you remember our conversation? Back when you called me at that party?

There was a real spark between you and him. Don't tell yourself that he doesn't feel anything for you, because he does. He loves you and you love him. You cannot miss such an opportunity. If you ignore it now... You may never get a chance to fix it again. Fight for yours, be strong as always.

I believe you can do it. I believe in you, in both of you.

I also have one last request for you...

Please don't cry... I know it's painful... But I want you to remember me as I was before all this. So that you remember only good memories related to me...

Please... Don't be sad. Death is just another path that each of us must follow.

I'm not afraid of it... There's nothing to be afraid of. I believe that it'll be even better there, although I'll miss you very much. I miss you terribly now.

One day we'll meet again.

I'll be waiting for you there...

I love you,

Raven