More Than Anything | Bellarke (ENG)

Chapter 21

After that moment, I felt like heaven, for real. But well... You know this feeling when you have the feeling that everything is finally going to fall into place, and after a while there comes a moment when you don't want to continue your life. Even one, the tiniest moment, an event.

As usual, it happened to me. Some may consider it a small matter, nothing important or even worth tears, but not to me.

Well, I forgot to mention that I had a kitten. Little, my beloved kitten, Loki. A few days ago, someone hit him by the car and my friend died. You may find it no big deal, but for me it's a tragedy!

When we took him to us, this little kitty took over my heart, and now he left... He took a part of me with him.

Once again my heart broke and my powerlessness grew.

I was sad and furious at the same time. I still couldn't come to terms with it. It was similar with Raven's death. They won't come back anymore and I can't accept it.

I was sitting in my room now, which, by the way, was a little messy. I was disheveled, dressed in any old clothes, and my eyes were red from crying. I didn't have the strength for anything.

Suddenly I heard the sound of the phone. I picked it up without looking at the display.

" What? " I snapped.

"Wooah, take it easy, princess. It's me. " I heard a familiar brunet voice. "What happened? "

"Nothing. " I said.

"Clarke... "

"Let it go, Blake! " I growled again and hung up.

I didn't mean to be so not nice. Unfortunately, I had no control over it. I threw the phone on the armchair and started crying again.

Half an hour later I heard someone's footsteps knocking on the door. I glanced that way but said nothing.

"Clarke, it's me. " I heard Bellamy's voice. "May I come in, princess? "

How can he be so lovely!

Even though I treated him so badly, he came to me anyway. He was always there when I needed him the most. But this time I lied and I didn't want him to come in, to see me like this.

"No, Blake! " I replied. "Go away, please..." More tears ran down my cheeks.

But I could say what I wanted, and Bellamy went inside anyway. Unfortunately for me, or rather luck, I didn't lock the door.

I leapt to my feet.

"Why did you come? " I asked even though I didn't know why. "Please, go awal... " I didn't want it at all and I don't even know why I said it.

"I'm sorry, princess, but I must refuse." He said and closed the door behind him.

"Why? " I folded my arms over my chest. I looked so horrible that I was ashamed that boy saw me like this. "I told you that you should let it go, so please..." I stuttered. "G-go..." I said, but boy wasn't listening to me and when I was saying that, he came up to me and locked me in a steel hug.

Involuntarily, I reciprocated him right away.

"Say what you want, princess... " Brunet whispered. "I won't leave you anyway. Never. "

"Don't say that! " I moved away from man, and he looked at me surprised. "You'll leave anyway! Like everyone... " A tear ran down my cheek.

"What? But why? " He asked confused.

"You said it yourself... "

"When...? "

"You said..." I wiped away my tears. "That you'll go with your mom as far away from Gale as possible. "

Only then he understand. He ran his hand through his hair and took a step closer, but I backed away.

"Clarke... "

"No. " I entered his words. "No, I've had enough. I'm losing everyone I care... I'm sick of, okay?! " I cried. "It's too much for me, I can't take it anymore! I can't... "

"Clarke..." Blake came over and put his hands on my shoulders. I yanked out, but after a while boy managed to calm me down. "Listen, princess..." Aaid and looked deep into my eyes. "I'm not breaking my promises. "

"That's why you leave. " I entered his words.

"No. "He replied. "I said what I said, but... A lot of things have changed. Too much... And at the moment I'm not going to leave, you hear me? Clarke? " Brunet lifted my chin so that I looked at him in the eyes. "I'm not going anywhere, princess. I won't leave you, I promise. " The tear ran down my cheek once again. "I promise, you hear me? " Blake wiped my tear with his thumb.

"Y-you promise...? " I asked uncertainly.

"I promise. " Said confidently.

I looked him in the eyes and didn't know whether to believe it or not.

This time, however, I decided to listen to my heart, not my head.

I trust him, so... I believed his words.

I hugged boy tightly, which he immediately reciprocated.