Born Again

chapter 19

Felix pov
I woke up my head ached a little, I looked around han was nowhere to be seen. I felt kind of hurt that he left me here like this, alone. I sight looking at the time. I have been unconscious for 30 minutes. My wounds were healed. I stood up leaving to my castle.
The workers and the guards were looking at me with questioning looks.
why are they looking at me like this?
"Felix, what happened to you, your face is covered with blood" minho hyung asked with a worried tone.
Shit, I forgot to wash my face.
"Nothing I am fine" I answered coldly.
"I know you are fine, I asked you about what happened" he asked annoyed now.
I rolled my eyes" han, finally decided to let his anger out and kicked my ass, happy now"i said. He looked shocked at what I said but before he could anything else I left toward my room.
I entered the bathroom washing the blood off my face before I decided to take a shower.
I lay on my bed looking at the ceiling.
"What should I do know? " I murmured closing my eyes.

Hyunjin pov

I was standing in front of the company, I left my parent's house early this morning. I decided to come to work since I was absent the past couple of days and I had work.
"Are you going to stay here or are you going to enter?" a voice said making me jump.
"Felix" I looked back at him"what are doing here?"i added
He took a deep breath, his eyes were filled with guilt"i wanted to see you, I know that you hate me after what han told you but please hyunjin believe me there is nothing more in this world I regret than killing hyunjin" he said, I scanned his face he looked sincere.
"So why did you do it?" I asked entering the company, he came after me.

Last night, I decided that I won't say anything to the two boys yet. I want to confirm that I am the reincarnation of hwang hyunjin, well I believe it but I need more memories.
"I..." He said looking at the ground, we were at me studio now.
"Tell me" I said.
"Since,I was young I had feelings for han. Yet all he cared about was hyunjin he just saw me as a friend, I wanted more" he said  his voice filled with anger."he always talked about hyunjin, telling me how great he is, his prince. I was always jealous of their relationship.however I knew that I could not do anything, I decided if they confused their feelings I will let han go.but when I was turned, my feelings all the jealousy and hatred I felt became even worse. After I knew that they were mates, I lost control and killed hyunjin." He paused sitting on the ground.
"For years hyunjin for years, I acted that I didn't care about the death of my friend. I was lying to myself, I blamed my vampire side for what I committed.but no, I was the one who killed him with my own hands because I am a monster" he explained.

I went closer  crunching down in front of him, I took him by his chin, his eyes were red tears decorating his cheeks.i moved my hand across his left cheek cleaning his tears.i kind of felt bad for him.
"I..." I paused, honestly I don't know what should I say to him.
"Do you want to see my new choreo"i said out of nowhere, trying to change the topic. I am not ready to talk about it now, I knew how hyunjin died and I felt the pain he felt

" what?"he asked with wide eyes, he looked like a cute angel.
"I heard form minho that you love to dance, and I am a choreographer  here. So do you want to see it or not" I asked.
"I loved to dance,I used to dance with minho hyung.... And hyunjin" he looked away " after his death I stopped "he added.
'Hyunjin used to dance 'I thought ,we have so much in common than I imagined.
" well, I will take that as a yes."i said heading toward my laptop.
"So this choreo, I have never performed in front of anyone." I said,
"I must be special then" he playfully said but I can stay hear the sadness in his voice.i rolled my eyes, the music start filling the room my body just start moving to the beat,

He is dancing to play with fire 🔥

Honestly if It wasn't feeling Felix's eyes watching every move I made, I would totally forget he is here, he was watching me like a hawk
The music stopped, I smiled sweetly at him catching my breath.
"What do you think?" I asked smiling.

Felix pov
I was watching the boy in front of me dance, I was focused on every move he made. But what catches my attention was his expression, he looked exactly hyunjin when he dances.
"What do you think?" He asked pulling me out of my thoughts.
I cleared my throat"that was amazing"i said getting up from the ground.
"You don't like it" he asked with a sad voice
"What... No I loved it , every move was on beat, your expression held many emotion. You are amazing jinie, but don't performed in front of anyone else, you looked sexy and I am a possessive mate " I joked making him laugh.
"Yeah sure your highness" he said teasing before He smiled at me his eyes turning into crescents.
"Hyunjin..." I murmured remembering my friend.
"What?" He asked heading toward me.
"Nothing... I need to go I have to check on han"i said running from the room.

This is really hard, everything he does makes me remember my friend, how did han stay with him for too long?
I sight heading toward han studio, knowing him he must be feeling guilty right now. I knocked on the door.
" come in"he said.he looked up from his laptop his eyes went wide at my sight.
"Felix,what are doing here?" He murmured looking away.

"I wanted to see if you are okay" I said sitting on the couch.
"I am okay" he replied"i am not saying this because I feel sorry for you. but I apologise about what I did, I am not a violent person and I won't forgive myself if I didn't apologise"he said.
"You don't have to apologise hanie, I deserved it" I answered him.

"Felix, why are you doing this to me?" he asked glaring at me now.
"I told you I want to have a chance with you and hyunjin" I replied.
"And I told you hundreds of time, I can't be with you, accepting you as my mate is like betraying my hyunjin." He paused "and honestly Felix, I don't trust you, not with me not with hyunjin" he added.
"I understand" I murmured.
"Now, leave " he said looking back at his computer, I nodded silently leaving.

Han pov
I feel awful, when I woke up this morning I didn't stop throwing up. The mate bond is punishing me for hurting Felix. I hate this, I hate the fact that I still have to suffer because of him. I am really tired, I really wish i could die and be with hyunjin and end this misery.
I sight leaning into my chair, if I accept Felix that means I have to betray hyunjin, if I don't both of us have to suffer for resisting the mate bond.
Yet I don't trust Felix, what if he get sick of me and hyunjin and leave if I give him a chance. No you can't even think about giving him a chance jisung.

Every time I look at Felix I see the hurt in hyunjin eyes when he died, I see Felix's father, I see a monster.
But sometimes I remember my friend the innocent sweet Felix I used to know.
i clenched my hair in frustration
"God, why is this happening to me" I yelled. Why I feel like I am the bad guy here...