Emmi [ COMPLETED ]

Under Weight

****EMMI POV****

The voice told me life or death. I was trying hard to go to death. But it wouldn't let me. I woke up in the hospital with my parents next to me "Mom, Dad I'm really sorry. I didnt- I mean- how do you still love me? I have been the worse child ever and you still love me. I didn't mean for this to happen. I was just-ugh nothing I can't talk to you with out the feeling of dad getting mad at me!" I said feeling the tears. "Emmi, I'm won't get mad at you. I was just- I'm didn't know how to handle the situation. I love you, i really mean it. And you can't go home. I'm sorry, they want to keep you over night to make sure you stable." He said kissing my forehead. "WHAT NO!! I can't stay!!" I started breathing heavily the thought of being alone brought back memories
*flashback*
Me and Lexi were laying on the couch when I feel a warm hand go down my pants and touch me. He forcefully turned me around and stared kissing me.
*end of flashback*
"NONONONONONONONONO!!" I started screaming and crying.
"Emmi! Calm down baby girl, we will stay with you until you go to sleep. Promise." Dad said
Before I knew it I fell asleep.

***COLETTES POV***

We walked into our rooms and we didn't even get to sit down before Gavin and Avia came in.
"Where is Emmi? Is she okay?" Gavin said
"Did we lose her!?" Avia said panicked.
"Kids calm down. She is fine. The hospital just wanted to make sure we would be stable. She can come home tomorrow morning." I said trying to hold in the tears.
The kids left and I broke out in tears. I just hugged shay and cried. "Am I a bad parent?" I cried.
"No, Colette you a super hero. Your an amazing wife I love you. God has different plans for her. It's all okay." Shay said kissing me. We all went to bed.
***EMMI POV***

I woke up at the butt crack of dawn. I was hoping that my parents would be here.
"Emmi, we have to take your weight, and see how tall you are, since your feeling better." The nurse said
I nodded and got out of bed, we walked to the corner of the room with a weight machine. She motioned me to get on the weigher. I did and she looked at me.
"53.6" she took how tall I am. She didn't tell me. I couldn't really stand for long my legs got weak.
"I think I'm losing to much weight to fast. But hey, I'm skinny, I have a flat stomach and barely any thigh fat. I'm happy." I thought to myself. I layed back down and 20 minutes later my parents came in. "MOM! DAD! I missed you so much!!" I barely had the strength to walk to them, "Emmi! We missed you to!" Dad screamed, he was vlogging and I was okay with it. "Mr. And Mrs. Butler, may I speak to you outside?" The nurse said
I knew what it was about.
My weight.
My happiness was going away
The thought of being skinny
I knew they were going to force me to eat.
I'm doomed.
They didn't close the door and they were speaking loud.
"Emmi, is VERY under weight. Did you notice how skinny she was? Has she been ever starved herself before? In most causes of suicidal kids is they don't eat." The nurse said.
"Emmi has never had a eating disorders. She always wears baggy clothing and long sleeves. She doesn't like showing off her body." Dad said.
"Emmi should be around the weight or 70 pounds for an 11 year old her height. She is 53.6 pounds that's not healthy at all. I would start to keep a sharp eye out." The nurse said
I could tell my parents were in denial.
While the nurse was talking to my parents some of the other nurses got me ready to go home. They put me in a wheel chair. My parents got my stuff and took me to the car.
"Emmi, you know we love you. You can trust us. We won't tell anyone what is going on. You can tell us anything." Mom said in her nice calm voice.
"Okay, the nurse was right. I have been starving myself. I throw up at least 7 times a day. I do it after breakfast, lunch, dinner, and during the night. Sometimes I throw up more then others. I feel really insecure about my body. I don't look like Avia, she doesn't have any thigh fat. I have lots."
"Baby, stop comparing yourself to Avia. Your you and your beautiful. We can start eating healthier." Dad said
"We can take you to crossfit if you want." Mom said
I felt good.