Goodbye and Hello

The Talk

Previously

Still dazed from both the kiss and the revelation, all Hiro could be get up and quietly follow behind Shuichi, still deep in thought about his feeling.

Unknowingly, the one thing Shuichi and Hiro failed to have noticed was the audience that had been staring down at them from the second floor, seeing every single bit of their conversation.

Present

Yuki's POV

Everything was a mess. I miss him, I miss him so fucking much. I wish I could talk to him, that I could find some way to fix everything. But I didn't even know what to do even after everything, I still found it hard to form my words, let alone even approach him. The last time I did things didn't go so well.

Flashback

I was waiting outside of his waiting room since his concert had just finished. After about 20 minutes the band finally came down. And as soon as they turned the corner, they saw me. Nakano had tried to approach me with a look of anger in his eyes until Shuichi stopped him. They looked at each other for a few minutes as though having a silent conversation, before Nakano turned around and walked away with Fujisaki. 

"What do you want Eiri Yuki?"

The name hit me hard, along with how cold his voice was.

"....umm...fuck, I don't know what to say."

Shuichi looked at me, then sighed, "Then let's first start with checking in on each other, but not here."

He walked past me, then opened the door, gesturing for me to come in.

I walked in and was taken aback. Right there on the wall, was a shell of books, MY BOOKS! I didn't want to bring attention to it, in case he was actually planning to get rid of them and just hadn't gotten to it.

"What...You thought just because we aren't together, I'll stop supporting you?"

I turned and stared, it was like he saw through me, so while a small sad smile, I said the words that had forever been stuck in my throat, "We need to talk."

"Okay, where do you want to start?"

"Well.....I.....I don't know," the words were stuck. I didn't know the right words or place to start, and when I did, I couldn't get them out, so I stopped trying and just let everything flow out like a river. I started with how much I missed him, so sorry I was about making him feel as though he wasn't important in my life. About how miserable he felt and how much he had to give to me and our relationship just to make it work. I talked about how I had tried to get over him scared that after he left, he wasn't going to look back which was why I paid a woman to flirt and kiss me. But even at that I still felt empty without him. About how I wished just talking to him would fix everything, but I know how much I fucked up and knew all those thoughts were just wishful thinking. I talked about how even if it was too late, I still wanted to try and make things right because my life felt empty without him.

I talked and talked that it almost felt like hours. I let all the words pour out until I felt a warm hand on my face. I looked up and through blurry eyes saw Shuichi had moved closer and that I was crying. I didn't know why but I was crying which is something I am not used to doing. Fuck, fuck...I love him, I love him, I love him.

"I love you so fucking much!" I said desperately grabbing his hand, "I do, and I don't want to lose you. I shouldn't have let my past affect our relationship, I'm so sorry.

I looked at Shuichi as he wiped my tears, and after I had gotten myself in control, he started talking. I almost didn't want to hear what he was going to say, but I knew I had to even though it wasn't what I wanted. 

"Yuki," Shuichi started, "I....................

to be continued.......

What will Shuichi say? Should he forgive Yuki? Should he move on?