Goodbye and Hello

Feelings?

Hey guys, I am back, sorry, I took so long to write, I have been caught up in school, and sadly life. Today we are going to take a break from Shuichi and Yuki, and we will be looking into a new life, hope you enjoy it.

Hiro's Pov

Hi, my name is Hiroshi Nakano, you probably know me as Bad Luck's guitarist, and best friend of Shuichi, Bad Luck's singer. So I have a secret, I have been meeting up with Fujisaki without anyone knowing. Well, more like we bumped into each other at a bar, and ever since then we have been drinking together. They actually aren't that bad.

I was currently on my way home after helping Shuichi move all his stuff back to his place when I decided to stop at a bar. I walked inside and sat down on one of the chairs waiting for my usual.

"It must be tiring dealing with someone like Shindou?"

I jumped startled, I looked to my right to see none other than my boss, Tohma, and then to his right was Fujisaki who seemed to be occupied with his thoughts. Tohma then looked at me from the corner of his eyes, as if waiting for an answer. They really knew how to appear out of thin air, even though I wish they would stop. After my heart had started working again, I turned back around as my order came and said, "not really, if anything it is more tiring watching as people hurt him repeatedly, without a care in the world."

Tohma turned and stared at me curiously, "can't he just take care of himself, I mean life is about getting hurt and then building yourself back up, ya know, all that crap."

I looked straight ahead, could Shuichi build himself back up, if someone hurt him as they did in the past, would he be fine without me? "I guess he might, but I am the one who decides to stick next to him."

"Explain."

"Well, you see ever since I meet Shuichi, he has never really been stable when it comes to anything in life, but more importantly, he had a great fear that everyone would wake up one day and just leave him behind. At least everyone he has met has died and to make matters worse, it always happened around his birthday. So he stopped expecting anything from anyone, even the world. But soon, I got him to start opening up, and one day I pushed him to try and make a friend, but......"

"But?"

"...but it didn't end up well, and it wasn't just that one time, every time he tried to step into a new idea in life, he always gets shut back down and in the harshest of ways, either by someone dying or him ending up in the hospital. It was then that Shuichi started to feel that the world really didn't want him around, that it wanted him to just stay put. At a time even I started to believe it too. Every time he went against the fate that the world had for him, he bestowed upon him a worse fate than the one he had. Bad luck, there is a reason Shuichi chose that name, and it is because all his life he felt that he brought nothing but bad luck to people, people around him got hurt, left or died."

"Then why didn't you just tell him to stop trying?" I turned to the one who spoke and met the eyes of Fujisaki.

I sighed, "it isn't that easy, right now Shuichi is just a body filled with all these emotions and experiences that he has, but his soul isn't there. The original him, the person who he was before everything fell apart wasn't something he could find or remember, and for a while, I thought I could ignore it.

"But you couldn't in the end," Tohma said. "Your soul is like your original core, without your core, everything else starts to shut down, am I wrong?"

"No, you're exactly right. Shuichi's body started to catch up, if he gave up, he lost all will to fight, and then his body shut down. But if he tries then he receives pain and repeats heartache. People might say it is out of pity, but I stay by his side because I want to. Shuichi might not remember, but I do. I remember the first day we met as kids, and even though he was sad he gave the purest smile, a smile that said he was content with his life, that despite all he was happy. I want to help him find that smile again. Besides, it isn't like I am not getting anything by staying beside him. Trust me, I get just about enough in return."

I turned back to my side and noticed that Fujisaki had walked away as someone demanded his attention, as I stared off after him, Tohma spoke.

"In a way, I kind of understand you guys' weird relationship, but you do know that Fujisaki likes you right?"

"Yeah, Shuichi told me, he said that the night you guys dropped me off after I got really drunk that I might have kissed Fujisaki and he was left a blushing mess so that is how he knew."

"Wow, I'm impressed, I always thought Shindou-san would be blind to things like this, but you like Shindou-san don't you, isn't that part of the reason you are staying so close to him?

I was taken aback, it was a complicated situation with a complicated feeling.

"Well, umm......"

to be continued...

Announcements

As I have said, I am sorry it took me a whole month to update, I have been so busy, I can't promise that I will update all the time, but you can defiantly expect something every two weeks or so, if by a miracle, maybe once a week. 

There are some changes to the book:

**Hiro and Ayaka(i think that is how you spell her name), they already broke up

**Tohma and Hiro won't be a couple, instead, it will be Hiro and Fujisaki, while Mika and Tohma stay together cause I figured we need at least one straight couple in this whole mess.

**As for the mpreg, the situation is that they will have mates but not like normal mates. Once you mark someone during sex that person becomes your lifelong mate. But they both have to agree to mate, and it can't be reversed unless one of the mates die. You can't mate someone without their permission and outside of sex, but most importantly you can only get pregnant by your mate, so even if your raped, the chances of getting pregnant is 1%, but raping is still a bad thing in this society despite this fact.

Well, thank you to those who have stuck to the story, and if you have any ideas, please feel free to write them down in the comments. Thank you everyone, and stay safe.