My Winter

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Winter's pov:

I woke up before Nic did. The sun was just coming up, and as it was slowly rising, it glowed off of Nic's face perfectly. I never noticed the tinny freckles around his cheeks, eyes and nose. I wanted to trace them with my finger, but I didn't want to wake him up.

I smiled, feeling the joy in my heart I haven't felt in a very long time. It was almost a strange feeling. Like something unknown was taking over and it was giving me chills. I'm not used to this feeling, but I could.

Something about being in his presence, something about him, just makes me feel alive and joyful. Maybe that's a part of love too.

I gave him a quick kiss on the forehead and got up. I limped quietly out of the room, careful not to wake Nic up, to the kitchen. But not before grabbing some pants.

When I finally reached the kitchen I grabbed the first fruit I saw. I didn't realize anyone else was in here until I took a bite out of the apple. My blood pressure was dropping, and I was getting dizzy. I needed something in my system. Thankfully, Anna saw this and quickly took me to sit down by the counter.

"Thank you." I said gratefully. I don't feel like I'm gonna fall over and pass out.

"Of course my dear. You should've asked for something in bed if you feel like that, hun. I don't you passing out and hurting yourself." She scolded me. The look of concern on her face, was evident.

I smiled and nodded. "I'll keep that in mind. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry you."

"How does waffles and bacon sound?" My mouth instantly watered.

"Yes please." I practically begged. I haven't had that in a while and that is like my favorite breakfast. Especially if it's made by her.

She nodded and smiled. She turned to resume her cooking while some instrumental music was humming in the background. "I can give you some Advil for the pain."

"Huh?" I looked at her confused.

She turned her to look at me with a smirk. "You were limping when you came in. I know Nic likes to do things a little rough. But he tries to be gentle with the first timers."

What she explained to me, made me jealous. How many girls has Nic been with? Why couldn't I have been his first? I swear to god, if he brings any... whores... here, imma hurt someone. He's mine. No one else's. My baby. My man.
Wait... did I just become... possessive? Nic must be rubbing off of me. Or I just love him that much. I don't know.

I cleared my throat, bringing myself back into the world and into the kitchen, taking a deep breath. "How do you know it's not from something else?"

She let out a chuckle. "One, you have the after sex glow. Two, limping. Three, you have hickeys all over your neck. I can only imagine what the rest of your body looks like. Hun, if that isn't an indicator, I don't know what is." Damn. I never new those things could be so evident.

I blushed hard and looked away. I covered my neck with my hands so no one else can see. How many hickeys did he leave?

"I'm uh... gonna go cover this up. I'll be back." I said, slipping out of the kitchen with Anna giggling away.

I run past the living room that had the boys, Bruno, Anthony and Jax. I heard Bruno ask, "Where's the fire?" But I ignored his silly question and I didn't stop till I got to the door.

I slowly opened the bedroom door cautiously. I didn't know if he was still asleep. I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed, checking his phone, as the door cracked open.

"Morning sleepy head." I smiled.

He looked up and his face went from gloomy to happy. I almost didn't see the frown and frustration in his eyes.

"Morning, mi amore." His accent was always heavier in the morning.

I walked over to him and he immediately put his phone away, grabbed me and hugged me. He held me like a child does when it's their first day of school. Like I was about to leave him and never return.

He laid his head on my stomach as I played with his hair. "What's the matter?"

He groaned in response. "I just want to lay with you all day. It's going to be a long day." He lifted his head to look at me. "Did you still want to come?" I hummed in reply. "Good. I need you today." He said in relief and placed his head on my stomach again.

We stayed there for a while before he said something that totally caught me off guard.

"I want you to carry my children. Perhaps not today, but in the future." He looked at me again. "Because, God damn it, this world needs mini you's. I need mini you's. I want to see your belly grow. I want to feel our children give little kicks. I want children running around this house. I want it to be filled with laughter and joy. And yes, even cries when they can't have something they want."

This caused me to giggle. I didn't know what to say. Yes, someday in the future, I would want them, but that still scared me. I've always been afraid that I wouldn't be a good mother. But at the same time, I thought I would be good at it. I just don't wanna take the chance that I'll be bad.
"I would love to be a mother." I finally said as I saw him awaiting for an answer.

"But?"

"I'm worried that I won't be the mother they would need be to be."

"Winter," he lifted my shirt, his shirt, with his warm hands and rubbed circles on my sides with his thumbs. "I know for a fact, you would make a wonderful mother. Do you know how I know that?" I shook my head. "I see how gentle you are with my nephew. I've seen how made him laugh and smile. I see the joy in your eyes when you hold him. I hear how you sing quietly to him to get him stop crying. You would make the Best mother in the world."

I felt my eyes water and a smile appear on my face. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of the shirt before the tears even fell.

"I'm not going to force you to have kids. I can wait. Just let me know when you're ready. Ok?"
I nodded gratefully.

I love you so much Nicolas Ruggiro. I love how you know what to say and what to do at the right moment. "How are you so perfect? It's as if a woman wrote you."

This made him laugh. "My mother helped me to understand women. What to do, what to say. There some things I'm clueless in but, you can thank my mother."

"I will." I laughed some more and bent down to kiss him.

When I licked the inside of his lips, asking for an entrance, he granted. Our kiss was full of passion, but also lust. I was standing between his legs when I felt him grow harder.

We pulled away for air. "We have somewhere to be. No?" I asked.

He nodded. "Want to join me in the shower?"

I bit my lip knowing what was gonna happen. "Sure. But we have to hurry. Breakfast is almost ready."