John Kramer | FORBIDDEN DESIRE (Book1)

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Note: This part was really upsetting if you'll ask me, so read at your own risk.

I have went to the warehouse to visit John because I was so bored being alone at home. I just walked and made sure that no one has followed me here.

I went inside feeling the excitement of seeing John, it feels like years without seeing him. The warehouse was quite clean, unlike the last time I went here.

I noticed a blueprint on John's table, that he's been working for weeks. I touched it but the small coughs from John's room caught my attention so I just leave it behind and went straight to knock on his door.

"John" I said and knocked a few times and the door quickly opens and revealed a gorgeous man on a red robe.

"What's up with you, darling?" he said and give me that damn looked.

"I just wanted to visit you, John" I said and softly caressed his face but caught off guard when he pulled me inside the room.

He had a looked on his eyes, it was cold and serious.

"I want you to do something for me, y/n" he said and I listen eagerly.

"Could you follow Mark right now? I think that he's up to something with Amanda" he asked and I think for awhile.

It's always, Amanda Amanda Amanda.

What's up with that woman and why do John mind her safety?

"What is it with her?" I asked and he frowned.

"Please, y/n. You knew that Mark could do something horrible" he said, convincing me.

I sighed as I hid my irritation about Amanda. But John seems to notice.

"Are you jealous, y/n?" he said and I looked away, he was keeping an eye contact.

I just turned around and was going to get out when he get in front of me, a second later my back was already pressed against the wall.

His warm breath was hitting on my face as his dominant hand pinning my hands above my head. He was staring at me with a smirked.

I felt helpless being on his own mercy. He looked so damn good and that looked he was giving me was so intense.

"She's my assistant, y/n" he said and I snapped at him.

"What about me, John?! Am I just a toy for you?!" I told him and his looked soften.

"It's not like that, darling. You are a part of my life and I would never exchange you for anything" he said and kissed me softly.

"I'm not Amanda, John.. you could just love her instead of me" I encourage him but he shaked his head.

"Please don't be like that, y/n... I love you, sweetheart" he whispered as his gripped loosen.

I took the chance to kissed him hard and rough. I pulled him, so desperate for more. But he pushed me away when we heard someone outside.

It was Jill Tuck, she had a bright smile on her face as she looked at us.

"You're driving.. right, John?" she asked as John went to her direction.

"Of course... I have to go, y/n" John said as he and Jill left me.

I was speechless and I wanted to make a scene but I felt weak, realizing that John might still have a thing for Jill.

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I went on a shop for flowers, I bought one when Amanda suddenly came out of nowhere.

"Where are you going with those flowers?" she asked, she has a sweet voice like an angel.

"Going to poison someone" I joke and she looked at me.

"John wouldn't want that" she said with a grinned as I smiled.

"Speaking of John I think she's on a date with Jill... I kinda wanted to confront them" I told her and she hugged me tightly.

"Don't worry, tell me how can I help you?" she said as my face lighten up.

"Make a scene in front of them" I told her and she laughed.

"If you say so.. come on, I'll give you a ride" Amanda said as she pulled me along.

_ Cemetery

I spotted John near a tombstone with a sad looked on his face. Jill was beside him, caressing his back while Jill rests her head on his shoulder.

Amanda took the flowers that I bought and went to confront them.

"Y/n needs your help now, John!" she said and John  frowned.

"I don't have time for this, Amanda" John said uninterested as Amanda threw the flowers on him.

"If you don't care about her, fine then!" she screamed at John.

"I do care about her, Amanda. But Jill always had a place in my heart" she said as Amanda was taken aback of what John said.

John stopped talking when he saw me approaching them. He looked away like he was feeling guilty about it.

"So are you done, John? is that why you are so desperate for me to go after Mark... for two of you to be together" I told him and he looked at me.

"It's no that... can't you see were standing in front of our dead son?" John said as he looked down at the grave that had a name, Gideon.

"It's his death anniversary and I don't want you to get involved..."  he said before he walked towards me, he tried to touch me but I didn't let him.

"But why? I thought you love me? I'll understand if you tell me but you keep it from me" I said and he suddenly snapped on me.

"It doesn't matter, y/n. It's between me and Jill, it doesn't have something to do with you!" he told me and it hit me hard.

"You still love, Jill?" my voice cracked hearing that she still had feelings for her.

"I'm afraid that I did, I cared about you y/n... but I loved her more" he said and I slapped him hard making Jill rushed towards me.

I quickly gripped her hair, tightly. I was fuming with rage, I didn't let her go. She screamed in pain as she tried to hit me. I was enjoying every moment of her, crying and begging me to stop.

But it didn't last long when John pulled me away from her. John looked at me with pain and rage in his eyes as he held my hands together, he was trying his best to calm me down.

"Fuck you, go to hell- both of you!" I screamed as I twist John's fingers, he yelled out cursing my name as I run as fast as I could.

Amanda rushed at me as I went inside her car, she comfort me... holding me as she caress my back.

"You didn't deserve him, y/n.. don't cry now, he's not the last person who's going to love you" she said while patting my back.

I won't forget this betrayal, I will seek revenge upon people who used me, including you John.