John Kramer | FORBIDDEN DESIRE (Book1)

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Note: Second update :)

I'm the only person who understands John. I been here since the day Jill left him after the miscarriage that happened. He was feeling devastated that time, consumed by his guilt and pain.

And I'm the one who stayed with him until he finally recovered from that, it took him three years and I was there, giving all of the love and support he was missing.

But still it wasn't enough, I could see the loneliness that John felt. He tried to adopt a kid but somehow he was unlucky.

So one night I decided to have a serious conversation with him.

"John, Can I talk to you?" I asked while I dried my hands after I'm done washing the dishes.

John is sitting on the couch while reading on his thick layered book that's all about Science and Technology.

"I want to help you" I said and he frowned, confused.

"I'm okay, y/n... you already help me a lot"  he said as he looked at me.

I approached him as I sat next to him, I gently put my hand on the book he was reading and I took it from him. So that I could have his whole attention.

"Let's make a baby" I suggested and he was surprised.

"You don't have to do it just to make me happy, y/n" he said but I don't want to just give up.

"It's not about making you happy- it's about building a family with you, I love you, John.." I said as I hold his hand, caressing his rough fingers.

He stopped for a moment to think before he caressed my face with both of his hands, our eyes staring with each other.

"I don't want you to think that I'm gonna use you as a human incubator... I want a baby, yes... but I'm already old and it must be too late-" I cut him off with my lips, just letting him get away with his thoughts.

It caught him off guard as I savour his lips, his smell and the delicious sensation he was making me feel.

I pulled away for a moment to breathe and let him rethink his next words.

"I'm gonna do this with you because I want it... I mean it John Kramer- I want a baby with you- yes!" I repeat myself again and he just smiled.

He hugged me tightly, his hands patting my back as I felt his tears on my cheeks. He was crying because of happiness and for the opportunity to start over again.

A night with John feels amazing, he was talented in bed, he was soft and passionate with me the whole evening. And I felt completed, like I have finally found the missing piece in my life- him!

I would say that it was love after all, he never leave me that night. We spent the night sleeping next to each other, cuddling and waking up in his arms.

We even tried to do it many times until our expectations become true, I was already showing signs of pregnancy.

Feeling sick in the morning, throwing up in the bathroom, dizziness and feeling moody all the time.

But I haven't told John yet, he was still working but I'm sure he will come home later. I even keep the pregnancy test for him to see once he came home.

My friend suddenly called me, she was my bestie since high school and she was a trustworthy person. I immediately answer the call hoping for any good news from her.

"Where are you, y/n? You need to see this- John is talking to Jill... they are at the cafe shop" she said in an annoyed voice.

Sometimes she over exaggerate small things- I trust John that he will never come back with Jill again...

"So what about it?" I asked and waited for her to answer.

"I overheard their conversation... Jill wanted to get back with him and she even tried to bribe John" she said and I felt furious.

Why can't she just let John be happy?! Why do she needs to come back after what she did to John?

I ended the call, trying to calmed down because I must not be stressed. I don't want to put danger to our baby since John always have become busy with work the whole month.

But now I'm sure he'll spend some time at home if he knows. I was too weak that I found myself sleeping on the couch, being tired from all of the crying.

"Sweetheart.. don't sleep on the couch, it's better to sleep in our bed" he whispered as he kissed my forehead.

I opened my eyes, still feeling sleepy but I was relief to see him again. I thought he was going to leave me for his ex wife.

"I thought you're gonna get back with Jill... I hope you don't" I said, I was feeling dissapointed.

I realized that he brought me back to our bed- how caring and responsible he is...

"Why would I, y/n.. you're already having our baby in you.. what kind of a father I am- if I'm going to leave you two... you are my family" he said, reassuring me as he kissed my lips.

I smiled because of that as I pressed our forehead together, just staring to each other's eyes while feeling my heartbeat rapidly pounding inside of me.

"Promise me that you will stay with me, John... I don't want to think of you being near with that woman again" I said as I looked at him with a warning and he just grinned.

"I will, y/n... don't worry, I know how to handle you... I'll be here to help you in anyway I can" he said as he force me to lay back on bed.

He starts massaging my foot, my legs up to my thigh. His touch were gentle and comforting. It makes me happy that I compliment him.

"If you keep on doing that... I'm afraid were gonna end up having more babies in the future" I said and he just smirked as he continued to make me feel relaxed.

"I'm at your service... just call my name, y/n" he jokingly said as he brushed my hair with his fingers.

I'm so lucky to have such a lover like him!