John Kramer | FORBIDDEN DESIRE (Book1)

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John was all busy alone with his work, he didn't dare to call me or even update me on what is going on and it made me upset, to the point that I want to complain about it.

But this evening, he did something different. He came home with a bottle of wine and some flowers. I was excited, seeing him again.

"Oh there you are.." he said as he come closer to me.

He had his black leather jacket on and he's wearing tight jeans that showed how perfect his build were, and that thing between his leg looks great.

I can't help but to keep glancing on it. It really caught me off guard and it was damn distracting, John chuckled when he noticed what I'm doing.

"Eyes up here..." he said as he give me the flowers with sparkle on his eyes.

John put the wine on the table as he kissed me, it was quick that our lips barely touch. It was like he was going in for a more sincere kiss but he just pulled away.

I was serious, looking at him unable to hide how mad am I.

"Why don't you kiss me properly, John?" I asked as I put the flowers away.

I came closer to him, staring on his eyes as he breathe against my face. John was stuck there, unable to move his hand or anything at all.

I leaned in to kissed him and god he has the sweetest lips that I can't help but to pull his jacket towards my body.

"Could we talk, y/n?" he said as he showed no emotions.

It broke me deep inside and I wanted to let him know that.

"What it is, John?" I asked while calming myself.

"Do you love me y/n?" he asked as I hold his hand, so tight that I almost break it.

"I do and damn- for fuck sake I have love you since the very day I met you!" John just stared at me, he was surprised

"Y/n... baby, tell me what happened to you when I'm long gone from work?" he said, his voice were so soft and tender.

"A lot, John... I was stressed and jealous" I admitted as I closed my eyes and I take a breath.

John close the distance between us, he pressed his body to mine. Missing how much his body feels like, hard and warm.

I felt devastated and all I wanted is him.

"I'm here y/n... I'm sorry for what I have done- but now I want to make it up with you" he said as he kissed my cheek.

John have pulled away as he looked at me one last time before going out again. Minutes later, he went back again with a plastic bag.

John asked me to stay on the couch as he was going to prepare our dinner. I waited there but I felt so tired that I ended up sleeping on the couch.

I felt so relief when all of my worries set aside. And I dreamed about John, he was cuddling me on our bedroom, he was half naked and he wrapped his hand on mine.

I chuckled feeling better at that moment. John keep on breathing on my nape, that sends shivers on my bones.

I bit back a moan as we stayed like that. He didn't talk to me but I felt that he was still awake and waiting for me to say a word.

"John... don't leave me hmm" I whispered as I rubbed myself to him.

"I won't leave you, y/n... I love you so much" he said as he kissed my cheek.

And then I wake up, seeing John stroking my hair as my head rests on his thigh. He starts humming a song, about how much he was lucky to spend some time with his beloved.

I smiled looking at him as I slowly sit up and rubbed my eyes. John watched me as he
quickly pulled me against his lap. I hold on his shoulder as he said in a husky voice.

"Go back to sleep, y/n... It's okay- I'm here" It made me feel happy so I leaned in to pressed my lips against his.

I softly nibble his lips, licking his lower lip and then John complied. I arched my back and his kisses went on my neck, teasing and moving further.

He pressed his lips together and then move on my collarbone, slightly bitting my skin as his kisses are now on my chest.

John have left red and dark love bites on my neck and chest. I can't help but to hold his hair, softly pulling it.

"I don't think I wanna sleep- have you eaten yet?" I asked and he just grinned resting his back against the couch.

"No, y/n... I'm waiting for you, so we could eat together" John said as he pointed out the dishes he prepared on the table.

I looked at it, seeing lighted candles and the delicious smell that coming from the food.

"Tell me what you like and I'll feed you" he said as he gently put me back on the couch.

John took a plate and put some stuff in there, he picked some meat and vegetables. He was asking on what I like the most about the evening and I told him that all I want is him, for us to be together and he was pleased to hear that.

John hold the spoon and slowly put it on my mouth, he was so hot. Putting the food on my lips, tasting the delicious sauce dripping from the meat.

I enjoyed it, everytime he feeds me. It was amazing, everything was great. John looked like he got different intentions based on how he bit his lip, how his eyes bore into my soul.

He made me so aroused and I can't help but to steal the fork from him and feed myself. John just watched me, eating the food the he just cooked.

I bet you will be the most delicious food for the night, John...

I looked down when John lick his lips, so attractively. It was making me feel hot when he wrapped his hand on my waist, going lower until he grabbed my bottom.

He growled when I put the fork back, moving my hands to caress his face. Smiling lazily as I kissed him, he kissed me back as we stayed like that, cherishing the moment.

John pour us some drink as we clicked our glasses, he chuckled seeing how cheerful his girl was.

Each time passes by... the love that we have for each other grows more. He was the best thing that every happened to me and I will never forget him.

But now everything has changed, I was alone, thinking about the memories, tearing up each time I stare on the pictures we have.

I want to die with you, John...

And I wanna live with you again...

we will soon meet- in another life where you didn't have to suffer from cancer...

The only thing that made me upset even more is why did you decide to keep it from me?

You don't have to suffer alone- it was so unfair that we are both together in happiness but in pain you are the only one that suffers..

Now he left a mark, deep inside my heart that will never be healed...