John Kramer | FORBIDDEN DESIRE (Book1)

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Note: A little bit of changes in writing, It was confusing but I like this one... Tragic!

John rushed to y/n but it was already too late. Y/n was on the ground, she's bleeding to death while gasping for air. John laid her head on his lap, he screamed for help... that his throat almost hurt like hell.

Starting that day, John's world shattered... he barely smiled. He was blaming himself from what happened to y/n.

John punched the mirror, it falls into hundreds of pieces. He feels the sharp pain on his fist. When he looked on it, there were glasses impaled on his skin, the blood runs on his hand.

"It's enough, Kramer. She's ruining you!" Mark told to him.

He have lost the love of his life, he also have lost interest on his work. He moved away from the screaming of the people trapped inside the bathroom. It only reminds him of himself, screaming to death but it didn't help.

John tossed the paper on the trashcan with a groaned. He have been trying to construct an idea but it didn't work. He ended up drawing y/n, he smiled sadly as he stared at the portrait of her.

"I'm sure that you're doing great up there. I hope I could see you one more time" he said, John kneel down while crying.

John finally gave up from praying as he laid down the bed. He hummed a song, the one that he sang to y/n. Later on he finally fell asleep holding the portrait of his beloved.

"John? I been looking for you darling" y/n said, she was smiling bright.

John tried to pinched himself but it didn't hurt. He thought that he was dreaming and didn't risk to cut off the moment.

"Y/n? I miss you so bad" John told her as he keep her in his arms.

"I'm here John, don't worry. I actually came here to visit you" y/n told him as she kissed his cheek.

"Don't go, y/n. I want you here with me" John murmured while feeling her soft skin in his hands.

"I hope that you will find something that will keep you from going on" y/m told him while caressing his face.

"You're my love and I will wait until we met again" John told her as he kissed her forehead.

Suddenly John woken up from the loud noise outside his room. He came out, containing the rage building inside of him as he saw Amanda and Mark fighting this early in the morning.

"You two are like children!" John scolded them and both of them look at him.

"It's her fault! She shouldn't be here with us!" Mark yelled out loud as John shot him an indignant look.

"You should have left her to die in that reverse bear trap!" Mark said and John pushed him.

He left the both of them confused, John wasn't like that... he will smile at them and stopped them from arguing but here he was just pushing Mark away then ignoring them completely.

Amanda followed him outside, she was worried about him. Even Amanda didn't know how to help John with his grieving.

"John, are you alright? I'm sure that y/n doesn't want you to be sad about her death all the time" Amanda spoke and John calmed down.

"You're right, Amanda" John just said and he left Amanda confused.

The old man get on his car, leaving the two apprentice in a shocking manner. The both of them tried to run after John but it was too late, they didn't stop him.

John already made his decision, he will end all of this, the pain, the hatred and the guilty feeling inside.

He will jump on a bridge that will immediately took his life. Down there was a river, there are many massive rocks that's waiting for his decision.

John sadly smiled before caressing his face, he tried to punch his chest... to ease the feeling he had on his heart but still nothing's working, he only end up hurting himself.

"If it is the only way, I'm going to take it, y/n" John screamed before he tried to climb on the metal that is protecting someone from causing accident but John want it, he wanted dead for the second time of his life.

His fingers deeply holding the metal to balance himself and then he tried to stand up, unafraid that he will end up down there... it was what he wants after all.

"John! What are you doing!" Amanda screamed far from him, John closed his eyes... hearing the voice of the birds in the sky.

And then John saw something, she saw y/n again. John finally jumped down but it seems like his fall was slowing down.

"I won't let you kill yourself for me, John" y/n told him while holding his hand tightly.

John miraculously didn't die, he fall on an area far from the rocks. He was not injured or anything, John was scared from what just happened.

He felt a rushed of emotions as y/n slowly fade in the air. John tried to hold his face but y/n only smiled at him and then John felt a cold sting on his chest and then John lost consciousness.

When John wake up, he saw that he's on a hospital. Y/n was there beside his bed, she was alive and it scares John when he felt the warm of her embrace.

"You're finally awake, welcome back John Kramer!" y/n told him as John look at her with tears on his eyes.

"You feel in a coma for almost two years, John" y/n explained while touching his hand.

John was relief knowing that it's all a dream and y/n was not really dead. John didn't saw anyone there, only him and y/n.

"I'm so happy you're here, y/n!" John couldn't expressed the feeling right now.

He just held y/n, afraid to let her go again, afraid that it is another dream and it's only a play of imagination.

Maybe it wasn't true at all... or maybe they finally reunited