Freaks// Eddie Munson Fanfic

The Favorite customer

It's been a little more than a month since that talk with Eddie.

Life has been...slow.
It's felt more like several months, to be honest.

It's not easy when I have a crazy bitch of a mom making life hard for me too.

I told her about my job because I was tired of hiding it and also because she knew that I was doing something else regardless.

She wasn't happy about it and tried to get me to stop but I told her I was going to regardless if she liked it or not. I've really been putting my foot down which I felt proud of but of course, it only makes things a bit worse. I think I fight a lot more with my mom than I did before. The only good moments are when I get to go to work because I can't even seem to escape everything at school because then I see him.

It's not easy now that he has a class with me which I wish I talked to him about prior. Just to know why because now I'm stuck having to see him forcefully every day.
He'll stare at me sometimes. On the days he doesn't it hurts me which makes me feel selfish because I do everything in my power to not look at him at all because I know I'll break and I don't want him to see that.

I don't want him to think anything of it.

With school being a shit-hole I find it more draining. I haven't been doing the best in classes. Still. My teacher did convince me to go to the school's guidance counselor though. Well..Zach convinced me.

Since I left the paper with support numbers to call crumpled up in his car, like an idiot, he noticed and tried to get me to talk to someone to which I refused. We eventually found a middle ground where I would go to the school counselor, mainly because one of my teachers after school went to talk to him as well when they saw him waiting for me. They talked to him about my performance in class. It was while I took my time in the restroom. Trying to touch up a bruise on my hand.

My mom still lays one on me a lot. I mostly hide the little bruises from Zach so he doesn't worry. It's been working out so far.

My CT scans came back fine so it really was all me being physically and mentally drained. Which is good in some ways and bad in others. Good to know my dad didn't pass down the cancer gene to me.

I've also been eating a lot more. It was hard at first, especially after calling quits with Eddie. I did have to painfully explain the situation to Zach since he was so worried. I struggled a lot at first but I did it for him. I didn't want him to worry for me anymore so we worked on it together. He also spends a lot more time with me now than he ever did before. I think Christmas and me getting a bit sick scared him. He wasn't like this before at all. I appreciate it nonetheless, but I do hate that he's taking so much time and gas to come see me and take me out. I wished he'd come home but I would never ask him to do that.

Work however wasn't so fun to be at, at least at first. I was very down and it was obvious but luckily Steve was very kind and uplifting during that time. I ended up telling him I broke it off with Eddie and I expected it to be awkward tension but he was very sweet actually. He found ways to cheer me up and I've been having a nice time with him.

I also finally told him my real address since he kept bothering me about rides now. Since Zach can't always pick me up, I skate a lot since I don't have Eddie and he's been offering so I let him. After all, my mom isn't home straight after school so it's fine but I always deny any request to do something after school because I know they'll take me home late and I don't want my mom to have another reason to call me a whore and lash out at me in front of my friends.
God forbid I have another male friend. She'll have a heart attack.

Overall I'd say in a way I'm doing better without him, which I hate. Only because I'm focusing on myself more but I'm also doing horrible without him because I miss him so fucking much.