Freaks// Eddie Munson Fanfic

The Championship Game

It's been about another month and thankfully school is almost out for break. Today is the last day before spring break so I'm glad. Maybe now I can ask for more days at Family Video and gain some more money.
Also, it's mostly so I cannot be home.

"Did you talk to your mom about it?"

I'm sitting in Ms. Kelly's office shaking my leg. Hoping for this to be over soon.

"No," I say honestly. "I told Zach."

"And how did that go?"

"He thinks it would be good for me. Says I would be able to see him much more and he'd help me get comfortable out there."

"That sounds great. What do you think about it?"

I look down at my nails picking at them. I didn't try to hide it. Lately, I haven't been doing my best. At least not at home. My eating habits aren't as present anymore. I'm pretty okay when it comes to eating. Life at home has been hard though. I feel like I'm constantly climbing up a hill and then right as I'm feeling like I'm about to get to the very top-I fall back down.

This week and Today I'm down there. I'm knee-deep in it.

"I think..I'm not sure what to think."

"Why's that?"

"There's things I'd be leaving behind."

"Mary, moving on won't be easy but maybe it's necessary. Perhaps what you need is a fresh start. A start away from your mom," she says and I snap my eyes up at her.

Her and her fake-looking smile. Trying to seem sincere.

"I can't just leave my mom."

She pauses for a moment without looking at me now before shifting in her seat and speaking up. "I understand it's not an easy thing to leave or move on from someone who's close to you."

You have no idea.

She finally looks back at me.
"Especially a family member and especially when it's your mother. However, sometimes those closest to us are the ones who cause us the most pain and sometimes you need to separate yourself from those people in order to grow."

I sigh and look away back at my ruined cuticles. I've got a habit of biting them as well as my nails now. Sometimes it makes me want to cry because I feel like they look very ugly now. I miss my long pretty nails but I can't help it when I'm anxious or uncomfortable. Like right now.

More so anxious than uncomfortable because she's right. I know she is but I just can't admit it. Not verbally at least and not to her.

"Don't think of it as leaving her but as taking a long break from her. You'll see her again. She could visit you or you can visit her. You can always call her."

She says it like it's the easiest thing to fly from here to California.

Besides, I truly believe if I leave she'll never speak to me again.
It's something I'm not sure if I'm okay with or not.

We've been talking about a school opportunity for me in California that she was looking into. She said my GPA suffice for a chance of me getting in. She says she could try and find some opportunities for scholarships for me but I'm not sure if I want to leave.

Besides the obvious fact of leaving my mom and starting on my own, I'm also thinking about the nagging sore on my shoulder. A sore that I grew long ago and refuses to leave me. Even though I'm not with him he still crosses my mind all the time and the thought of leaving and possibly never seeing him again makes me want to sob and break down.