The Song Of Us.

Broken.

A few months later :

If Porchay had been shot in the heart, it would have been less painful than seeing Kimhan Theerapayankul, the love of his life, alongside a young woman.  A young foreigner, pretty of course, but Kim had never had any interest in women!  Chay kept looking at the picture of Kim and the girl, while remembering the worst day of his life... when Kim left with his heart.

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Kimhan was basically a lone wolf, because of his family heritage, Kim had never wanted to know love and even less to have to protect a fragile young woman.  He didn't want this situation, but he didn't have the choice, even though he was hurt and he would have to hurt Chay... It has to be done.

- I'm sorry, Porchay.

..... Chay looked at Kim, they were facing each other, in young Theerapayankul's big living room.  Kimhan's expression was as cold as the day he'd shoved Chay away. 

- You're telling me... that you're going to marry a girl?!

Porchay was so shocked that he even almost burst into nervous laughter before looking for a camera... But it wasn't a silly prank, Kim was serious.  And he was breaking up with Chay. 

- Why ?  Kim held Chay's gaze, he was struggling to remain unmoved. 
- I'm sorry, Porchay. 
- Stop with your excuses, tell me the truth.  You do not love me anymore ?  No, wait all this time, did you ever fall in love with me?!  You were playing with my feelings while there was someone else ???  What ? Do you love her ?
- It has nothing to do with feelings, you should grow up, Porchay ! It's not that simple.

Porchay was so shocked that his breathing became difficult and his legs gave out, he collapsed to the ground screaming in pain and when Kim tried to help him up, Porchay pushed him causing Kim to fall and Porchay threw himself on him,  he slapped Kim hard, several times.  Kimhan was looking at Chay, he could have easily stopped Porchay since he was stronger, but he knew he deserved it. Every slap was a punishment Kim had to endure, because Porchay had every right.      

When Porchay felt his whole heart vibrate with anger, he burst into tears, he cried for a long time in the neck of the one he loved so much...

- I beg you, I beg you P'Kim, don't do that to us, please not that, not breaking up....  Please.... P'Kim, I love you. How can I live without you, hum ? Can you please not leave me again ??

Kimhan felt his face harden, Chay was crying so hard against him that at that very moment he felt his heart break and his mind sink.  Kimhan had just lost his bit of humanity and warmth that he had found by being with Porchay.  But life wasn't easy, and we couldn't do what we wanted. 

- I'm so sorry, don't cry. 

Kimhan straightened Chay before leaving him sitting on the ground, still crying.  Then he gave him a last look before telling him in a harsh voice:

- You are no longer a child.  Do not put yourself in this moment for a poor love story that is worth nothing.  It was only temporary, Porchay.  I'm not Kinn, I don't give up my family for love.  Sorry.  I'm leaving for Italy, you can stay in this apartment if you want, feel free to hate me, because I hate myself too.... Goodbye, Porchay.

Porchay lay on the cold ground for a long time, his eyes red and swollen.  He whispered with pain:

- don't leave me.... please, I be a good boy... don't leave...

But Kim had already left and he had taken Chay's heart with him.  The latter felt an excruciating headache, he wanted to vomit and dark thoughts kept coming to him....

After a week without any news from Kimhan Theerapayankul, Porchay had changed in a terrifying way, he had not told anyone what happened, he lived locked up in the room which at the time belonged to Kim and him...It was once filled with so much love and sweet moments.
His skin was so white that it looked like he was sick, his hair had grown a little more and he had lost weight, he was in a bad shape. Chay wasn't eating anything, he couldn't keep food in his stomach, he was throwing up everything. He could only drink, water or alcohol, or both.
Porchay was so miserable that he completely stopped moving from the bed, his clothes were the same for several days and his phone was nowhere to be found. 

After spending a month alone in his sadness, Porchay one day heard someone blowing up the front door.

- PORCHAY!!!! 
- Chay ??
- KHUN PORCHAY !!!
- Guys, are you sure that he is here?
- I don't know man.
- Arm, Pol, search for him everywhere.
- Yes Khun Kinn !
- Porsche, calm down, stop yelling !
- Fuck you Kinn. And where is you little bro too ???
- I don't know oiii.

A familiar voice was screaming his name which resounded in the whole building.... Porchay had trouble waking up, his body was painful, suddenly, he heard footsteps close to him. Someone opened the door :

- PORCHAY !

- Hia...

Porchay had a sore throat, he wasn't used to talk anymore, he had been so long since he was alone... 
When Porsche found his little brother, he was in shock and he hugged him so tightly that Chay felt a broken rib... His loneliness was beginning to end. However, Porchay was a broken soul, loving Kimhan was the biggest mistake of his life, and he had learn it.
Porsche and Kinn took him to the hospital, Doctor Top, their private doctor, took the couple outside the room.

- If he can make it... I am not sure what will happen.
- What the fuck are you talking about ?! Yelled Porsche but Kinn stopped him.
- I am sorry, I think... Your little brother is sick, if doesn't want to eat, his body won't tolerate it. We are trying everything in our power to save him, but we can keep him alive if he is dead inside...do you understand?
- Yes, thank you, you can go. We need time to think about it. Please do your best.
- Yes Khun Kinn.

When Doctor Top left, Porsche sat down, he was stressed.

- Ai'Kinn.
- Hum ? ( Kinn was stroking Porsche's back softly).
- Your little brother better be dead, because if Chay is in this state thank to something else, I swear... I will kill Kim.