My Life Inside The Novel (Completed)

Chapter 40: It Was Never Love, It's Guilt

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Konnichiwa mina-san!

I'm sorry for not updating for a very long long~ timeee.

Can't really find time to write since nauubos lahat for school works, gala, and emote emote HAHAHA

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It was never hard to fall in love with someone who had been there all the time to save you.

To meet someone who can save you without even asking for help.

It was an encounter and a chance that Steven knew he would never have experienced.

All because Steven is a person that cannot afford to fall in love.

Because of his past and his thirst for revenge, he should never fall in love because it would be his downfall.

It will be his weakness, which is a factor he never dares to have.

That is why, even in the original novel, Steven distance himself from everyone.

Even Emmersette and Aalee who had been there since day one never got a chance to get inside Steven's heart.

In the original novel, even after he got his revenge, Steven never had a wife or a girlfriend.

All because it was already too late.

All because he knew he could not love anymore.

He is too dark and vicious at that time.

Steven knew that no one would be able to understand him or could save him.

Until the end of the book, Steven thinks that loving someone romantically is a chance he would never have.

That is why, despite the changes Lysithea brought in the novel because of her reincarnation, Steven still never allows himself to fall in love.

However, to be saved by someone countless times without even asking for help or opening up is an experience Steven did not know he needed the most.

Despite not telling his real plan, his real thoughts, his needs, and his pain, Lysithea was there.

Lysithea reaches her hand to him without asking any questions and exchanges.

That is why, for Steven, it is easy to fall in love with Lysithea.

For those 5 years, Steven learns how to love Lysithea silently.

Because, unlike others, Lysithea never ask a question and made him worried for her safety but she still manage to make him fall in love.

Without the expense of needing to protect her or live in fear that Lysithea would be in danger because of him, Steven learns to love her quietly without suffering the consequences of loving someone with a case like him.