So you text me again
We have a starbucks meet up
I wish i could say date but oh well
Its at three in the evening
On saturday
I am scared
I am really really scared
I think i would beg you to stay
You were my everyday
Now i dont know what to do with myself
So everything in me is yelling
Stay
Please stay
And i guess thats something
There is a piece of me the one thats tired of being hurt
And being left behind
So i constantly say
You can leave me you can hurt me i dont care
And the other piece
Well it feel like a hidden piece
One that scream stay
I dont want to be alone
I want to be good i want to be happy
I think i am most upset about that
The fact that i was hurt so bad in the past that the part of me that screams stay is hidden
I feel like it shouldnt be hidden
I feel like i shouldnt have to even have the piece of me that has the i dont care additude
I want to know so badly what its like to be able to just be in love to be happy
To not hurt
I feel like i have always hurt
Like there was never a reprieve
Except with you
I wish you had a little more patience
I couldve been better
I couldve been good
But i cant ask that of you
Do i wish i could
Yes with every piece of me
But i want you to be happy and if that means not waiting for me
Then so be it
God i wish you would just be patienct
I wish with everything in me
To just stay once more
Be my everyday
One more time
YOU ARE READING
One year
PoetryA situastionship. Just two people with bad communication and the fall out the growth anxieties obsession's depressions all of it put into words to help heal and move on
