I saw you for the first time in months
That was weird my stomach got upset and my heart rate increased i felt sick I felt so sick
All the feelings I had been repressing thinking I was just moving on
Wham right to the gut heart and lungs
Fuck you
Fuck you and your piece of shit friends
Fuck you and your shitty family
Fuck you and your shitty silence
Fuck you and stupid stubborn thoughts
I hate you!
Why did you pick me if you wearnt going to stick around huh what was the reason
What was the reason!
Did I just seem like the perfect being to fuck with!
God I hate you
You looked so angry when you noticed me
And I felt the piece I had tried to tape together fell and shattered some more
God I hate you
I hate my feelings for you
People always ask me if I hate you and I've never been able to say I do instead I tell them
You are a good guy
That we just didn't mesh well
Even though you made me sob
scream even
Even though you made me feel like shit
Even though you keep going not even effected
Why did you pick me
Why did you leave
Why did you let me leave
Why couldn't we have been better
I miss you cuddling me holding me close
We were so close for a year and it's all just gone...
It's all gone there's nothing left nothing at all
In one night it was all gone
I couldn't do it and your were fine with that you gladly ran away didn't you glad to be rid of me and my problems
your friend threatens to cub stomp me and god I wish she would I probably diserve it but I would fuck her up I just wish she would I want a reason to snap
I'm one thing away I swear
YOU ARE READING
One year
PuisiA situastionship. Just two people with bad communication and the fall out the growth anxieties obsession's depressions all of it put into words to help heal and move on
