I can not decide if I am at fault or if it's okay to say it's my upbringing
My therapist has a lot of good advice
Yesterday I was too sad to really process
Any of the session
However, today is a new day
And it was a good day thank you very
much
He asked me how it was my fault
And you know what at the time
I didn't have an answer
That was the question for sure
How was it MY fault
Well let's, see
Why did we fall apart is a good place to
start for this
We fell apart
Due to my lack of communication skills
Not my fault
That I can blame my parents
The environment was not the type to learn communication in
We also fell apart because I was too independent
Or you were in short clingy
So both of us I guess is at fault
So yes I was a bit too independent
But again even that
You needed patience
To even have clingy me
You didn't have enough patience
but that is fine
You shouldn't have to wait
It was one of your needs
My mood swings
If you could call it that
I can blame you
Because you hurt my feelings
I can blame me
Because I didn't learn how to open up
I could blame my parents
Because of many things
The environment that taught me to survive by avoiding conflict hiding my emotions
So that was that
I shutdown
And what do you know
Didn't have the patience or skills to handle that part of me
It was too much on you
Which is totally fine
So ultimately
It was and wasn't my fault
It was yours and not yours
And we could both definitely blame our upbringing
YOU ARE READING
One year
PoetryA situastionship. Just two people with bad communication and the fall out the growth anxieties obsession's depressions all of it put into words to help heal and move on
