Today is the last time I write about you officially
and today is the last day I hate myself over the whole thing
I'm sorry to my past self
For hating myself
For letting myself think I was unlovable
For holding myself to too high of standards
I know I can screw up
But I can't make up excuses
For my behavior or yours
Or find a way to blame myself for every issue
Jack has a girlfriend I'm pretty sure and I couldn't care less
That's nice to know
I feel almost free now that I feel like there are no more chances
That there are no more feelings of co-dependence
It feels like now there are no chances to back myself up and go back to the unhealthiness that was us
It wouldn't have worked thank goodness for that
We were not compatible
I'm not mad about it today either
I forgive my past self for going back
For letting a cycle repeat
For not having the skills needed
I have to remind myself that I am human and that shit happens
Even if it doesn't feel like looking back it could be us and our actions
And that I don't have to destroy myself so awfully
I have to remember that I learned
And that I grew and that is all I can do
I don't have to keep beating myself up so
I forgive myself
I'll probably have to keep doing it but this is the start
And that's all I can hope for right now
I can do this starting here
I am gonna not be so hard on myself I don't deserve it I did my time
YOU ARE READING
One year
PoesíaA situastionship. Just two people with bad communication and the fall out the growth anxieties obsession's depressions all of it put into words to help heal and move on
