Its new years eve
And part of me wants to leave you behind in 2021
All the memories
All the feelings
All the growth
All the pain
The other part
Well it wants to keep you
To text me a little bit before midnight
Saying you want to meet up
To talk
To explain
To apologize
Then we hug or kiss
I hate myself
Why am I so dumb
I was very in love with you
I knew I was
Yet I still chose to keep my options open
I should've just chosen you fully
I wish things could've been different
Between us
I wish I had opened up more
I wish you weren't so hastily to love me
I wish you had let me miss you before this
Let me truly see how much I liked you
I don't know anymore
I think I miss you
I think I want to be with you
I think I want you to show you care
It's too late for that though isn't it
I just want to see you
I want to see you
See me
I want you to feel what I feel
I miss you
You probably don't
That's okay
I will lie and smile
Say that I'm okay that
I'm fine
YOU ARE READING
One year
PoesíaA situastionship. Just two people with bad communication and the fall out the growth anxieties obsession's depressions all of it put into words to help heal and move on
