Karl sat in his bed, staring up at the ceiling. It was now Monday afternoon, he just finished all his classes for the day and then he had his dinner at his usual table with Tubbo, Tommy and Ranboo. He finished his meal quickly, and barely said two words. He couldn't stop thinking about Sapnap and their interaction today. Why didn't he want to talk to him?
He felt like such an idiot for embarrassing himself like that. Sapnap probably thought Karl was obsessed with him or something. Although, he kinda was.
A knock at the door gained Karl's attention and the boy then stood up, walking over to where the sound came from. He opened the door to see his best friend, Tubbo, standing there.
"Hey Karl, can I come in?" He said, smiling brightly. Karl just nodded silently, he couldn't be bothered to talk.
"So uh- wanna talk about what happened with Sapnap?" Tubbo asked, sitting down on Karl's bed.
Oh for fucks sake. Karl thought, and then wordlessly shook his head, sitting besides Tubs.
"Well then let me talk." Tubbo sighed, knowing that his friend needed to hear this. "You need to move on Karl. You have given Sapnap time to sulk, now he needs to get over himself and talk to you. Since he didn't put in any effort to do so, you did and by your reaction now I can tell it didn't go well. Please Karl, please try move on. He is a total douche and you could do so much fucking better."
Karl just stared at the boy, his eyes wide. He didn't know what he was doing, but he found himself leaning in. And Tubbo was also leaning in? Within seconds, their foreheads were pressed together and they could feel eachothers breath on the others face. Tubbo made the final move and then pushed forward, kissing the boys plump lips.
Karl didn't want this. He didn't like Tubbo romantically at all. Hell, he was in love with Sapnap! He pulled away quickly, his eyes wide like saucers.
"Shit-" Karl whispered. Why did he feel guilty? Why did he feel like he had cheated on Sapnap despite the two being broken up?
"That was a mistake. Sorry, I shouldn't have done that."
"No no, it was my fault. I'm sorry, I should go." Tubbo said, getting up to his feet and awkwardly wiping his lips with the back of his hand. "I'll see you tomorrow, Karl." He said quickly before speeding out the room.
Karl sat there on his bed, his eyes wider than never before. Did Tubbo actually have feelings for him? That was so fucking weird, the two of them were like brothers in Karl's opinion. He wiped his mouth and then laid back down on his bed. Then his mind travelled to Sapnap, he felt so fucking guilty but why? Karl was almost certain Sapnap had been with other people since their breakup, the way he acted today showed that.
He just sighed and closed his eyes, forcing himself to go to sleep, he couldn't deal with this anymore.
Karl woke up the next morning with a big headache. He didn't feel well at all, did he have the flu or something? This was not the time for him to be sick. He tried to breathe in, but his nose was all blocked and stuffy. Maybe he had a cold. Fucking fantastic.
He turned his phone on and texted Tubbo,
no point coming my dorm today, ive got a cold cba for lessons
TUBBO!!!
is this because of last night? im so sorry karl honestly that was my mistake
no tubs honestly your fine. im honestly sick lol
TUBBO!!!
oh- lmfao okay sorry. cya later ill drop by ur dorm after dinner to check in
alr see u then have a good day
TUBBO!!!
u 2 dont die
And then he turned his phone off, and let sleep overtake his mind once again. As the boy slept, he let his mind forget about Sapnap and Tubbo, he couldn't be bothered for anymore of the drama.
Until, someone knocked at his door. Karl didn't know how long he had been sleeping for, it must've been a few hours, he checked his phone to then find out its nearly seven in the afternoon. So, the boy assumed this would be Tubbo at his door, so instead of getting out of bed he shouted,
"It's open!" Letting whoever it was come in.
But no, it wasn't Tubbo. Nor was it Ranboo or Tommy, or not even Dream. It was Sapnap, his ex boyfriend.
"Hey." Sapnap said quietly, walking into the room and shutting it behind him, then leaning back on the door.
"Uh- what are you doing here?" Karl asked, sniffling loudly.
"I noticed you weren't in any classes today, wanted to make sure you were okay." Sapnap responded, and then took a few steps closer to the other boy.
"Why the fuck do you care?" Karl spat "You made it very clear yesterday you don't care to have a conversation with me."
"Karl I-I'm sorry... I just didn't expect you to come talk to me, i was surprised." Sapnap mumbled, feeling very awkward.
"So what? You expected me to never talk to you again? Am I not allowed to miss you, Sapnap?" Karl growled, not caring to be nice anymore. He was sick of all this drama.
"You miss me?" Sapnap asked, his voice almost silent. His cheeks went pink as he finally looked down to meet Karl's eyes.
"Of course I do, you idiot." Karl said, his voice now quieter, and much calmer. Sapnao sighed, then sitting besides him on the bed.
"I miss you too, Karl." He said, looking at the boy.
"Did you... Have you been with anyone else since we broke up?"
"You don't get to ask me that." Karl said quietly, not wanting to admit to his kiss with Tubbo. "And who are you to ask such a thing? You've obviously been with a new girl every night!" And Sapnap shot up at that comment.
"Fuck you Karl, I haven't been with anyone else since you!" He shouted loudly, his brows furrowing.
"Wait- seriously?" Karl asked, a small smile threatening to form on his face.
"Of course not Karl! I love you, so fucking much it hurts!" Sapnap admitted, after keeping his feelings quiet for so long. "I think about you all the time, I can't sleep anymore so instead I just go to party's and drink my feelings away. I try to forget you, but thats fucking impossible. I love you, I love you and I hate myself for it because I feel like shit when we are together. I feel like I'm dragging you down, and you deserve so much fucking better."
"Sapnap..." Karl whispered, nudging closer to the boy. He saw Sapnap's eyes begin to water and the sight broke Karl's heart all over again. He shuffled over to Sapnap and his eyes trailed across the boys perfect face. "I would kiss you right now- but I have a rubbish cold that I don't think you want." And Sapnap chuckled at that, then grabbing Karl's face and pulling them together.
"I want you, and thats all that matters to me." He said as he then pressed his lips against Karl's enjoying the sweet taste he had missed the past two months.
The boys continued kissing, and it quickly turned into a make-out session which both the boys were more than happy with. "I love you." Sapnap quietly mumbled into Karl's mouth over and over again, instantly kissing him again straight after.
"Okay wait wait wait..." Karl said, his voice raspy and his lips plumper than usual. He licked his lips before continuing, "So can we please just get back together?" He whispered and Sapnap just look at his silently.
Of course he wanted to get back together with Karl, but what about the fact that they are at such different stages in their life?
"Karl if that is what you truly want, then yes. But i'm still not sure if i'm ready to be out yet." He eventually said, his voice serious.
"Yeah yeah, whatever. I don't care about that anymore, I just want you. I want you to be my boyfriend, and I want to be yours." Karl instantly said, kissing Sapnap once again.
"I've missed you so much, Sapnap."
"And I've missed you too, my love."
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Damaged Goods. || KARLNAP
Fanfiction"you don't get it, i'm damaged karl." "more like damaged goods." - Sapnap has been at this boarding school for over two years, Karl however is new and in need of new friends. But what he didn't expect was to fall for this specific boy.
