Damaged Goods. || KARLNAP

Chapter Thirty-Six.

Karl entered his room and instantly saw Sapnap sitting on his bed. The boy was on his phone, and the song Bad Habit by Steve Lacy was playing quietly.
"I wish I knew, I wish I knew you wanted me." Karl's boyfriend sung quietly, it was almost a hum.
"I do want you." Karl giggled, and then Sapnap looked up in an instant.
"How was it?" He desperately asked, referring to Karl confronting Tommy about the blackmail.

"Well, it was Tommy, he admitted it was dumb and said he only did it because he hated you." Karl explained, and Sapnap looked as-if his heart just shattered.
"So this is my fault." He said quietly, and Karl quickly perked up. He walked over to the boy and pulled him into a big hug.
"Don't go there Sap, I mean it. It's not your fault at all, Tommy is just a stupid child. Please don't feel guilty, love." He mumbled into his boyfriend's shoulder, and he just felt Sapnap nod slightly.

"I know, I just don't understand why he blackmailed you, why not me if he hates me so much?" Sapnap asked after he pulled away.
"I'm not sure, but you can't dwell on it. Maybe you could ask him?" Karl suggested, and Sapnap just groaned.
"If i see him, I don't know what I'll do to him after putting you through that." He responded and Karl just grinned to himself. He looked down to hide his smile, and Sap clearly picked up on it so he lifted Karl's chin, "What?" He asked, confused on why the boy was smirking.

Karl giggled to himself, keeping his eyes on the ground.
"What is it?"
"Its just- Its kinda hot seeing you be so protective over me. I don't know." Karl mumbled, his cheeks flushing pink. Sapnap just smirked, he was honestly so in love with this boy.

"Well then, would you like me to go punch him? Is that considered hot?" He chuckled, and Karl just shook his head while slamming his eyes shut. He giggled to himself before then looking up at Sapnap.
"Maybe." He mumbled, leaning on his tip toes and kissing the tip of Sapnap's nose.
The boy just chuckled, "You're cute."
"I know."

Karl and Sapnap sat on the bed for now, the boys knew that right now they just wanted a cuddle. They could deal with Tommy tomorrow, but in this moment, the just desired to be together.

A few hours passed by and then they fell asleep, despite the lack of food and social activity they had, they just slept.

Monday came and the boys woke up to Karl's usual alarm. Sapnap forgot about their classes for today, and this is when he realised he probably shouldn't of slept in Karl's room. He slid out of the bed, leaving Karl pouting.
"I have to go back to my room to get my clothes." He said, and Karl forced himself to sit up.
"Why? Can't you just wear my clothes?"
"We can't risk it, people will be able to tell and then the questions would begin."

"Would that be so bad?" Karl asked, finally wanting to just be an open relationship.
"Well.. I-I don't know.." Sapnap mumbled, "Would you want us to be out? Like, out as in our relationship."
"Yeah, Yeah I think I would."

"Oh." Sapnap said, and that scared Karl terribly.
"What? You don't?"

"If you want us to come out, then we will." Sapnap mumbled, sitting back on the bed besides Karl, but his eyes just stayed on the bed sheets.
"No. Do you want us to come out, Sapnap? Because if you don't, we can wait." Karl said, but to be honest he didn't want to wait. He was done waiting. He was done being in a secret relationship, and maybe he should just tell Sapnap this?

"Are you sure?" Sapnap asked, and Karl knew this was his chance to speak up.
"Well, okay fine. I don't like being in a secret relationship, there. I said it." Karl said, and this was his turn to not meet the other boys eyes. He kept his eyes on his fidgeting hands, not being able to bring himself to look at Sapnap's facial expression.
"I get that Karl, I do." Sapnap mumbled. "I just don't know if i'm ready."

"And I don't want to rush you! I really don't, honestly. But maybe we should..." He couldn't say it. He couldn't bring himself to say the words.

But maybe we should have a break?

"Karl." Sapnap whispered, his voice cracking noticeably. "I-I know what you want to say. And-and maybe you're right."

Karl looked up, his eyes wide as he finally looked at the other boy. The boy that was his boyfriend. Could he still call Sapnap that?
"So you want to break up?" He said, expecting Sapnap to hold up more of a fight.
"I don't want to, but its for the best. We are at different points in our life. I only just realised that I'm- Well fuck I don't even know."

Karl didn't respond for a few moments, he could feel tears build up in his eyes. He knew Sapnap was right, this was truly what was best for both of them. But fuck, his heart was shattered like never before.
"Y-You need to go." The boy said, his voice no louder than a whisper. He stood up and leaned against his wall, and Sapnap just stood still. "Sapnap, go." Karl spoke up again, his voice cracking embarrassingly.

"Karl I love you." Sapnap said before making a run for the door, slamming it shut behind him. Karl was stood, alone, miserably. He had no one. Yes, a few friends but they were only his friends through Sapnap. Hell, they'd probably just ditch him now. Fuck, had he made a mistake?