Life, Not Roses

When Dreams Sing

i fell asleep with pillows surrounding me,
almost comforting
like it was cradling me to sleep
but when i unlocked my eyes from complete darkness,
instead of pillows i was surrounded by fields of flowers and grass
with a beautiful river
that showed of birds who took swift sips of the alluring water
the sky was bright, with hardly any clouds
and a sun that shined down,
feeding the fields of flowers for miles
peaceful and calm
so i walk towards the clear waters
until i can't breathe
violently holding onto my neck i plunge into the river
but instead of soft fishes and cute turtles,
there were razor sharp creatures
and vines that seemed alive
and i just couldn't seem to stay above to water
until the vine grabbed my ankle
and pulled me into the river's abyss

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life was silent
no one was awake
except for the moon that gave me weird stares
i couldn't see much in the pitch dark,
only mismatch pillows and comforters
and the pitch black shadow of amitola underneath the moon's lighting
all i could do was let my eyes become rivers in silence
only letting a sniffle out once or twice
but of course i couldn't do that either
waking up the one person i truly tried and dared not to
amitola rubbed her eyes slowly,
grasping her vision of me soaked up in tears
"What happened?" she whispered in a concerned nature
"I don't even know..", i covered my eyes, "I just had a dream that wasn't even that scary,"
"Bestie cuddles are always free.." she smiled warmly
i just let it happen
knowing that the deeper i go, the more it's going to hurt later
the stinging in my eyes
made it clear that i just needed a hug,
so i closed my eyes and let my face dwindle into her soft skin
thinking tomorrow was going to be shit