Life, Not Roses

Another Chance

it's now 6:00 am
i didn't sleep very well,
and everyone is still asleep
but the sky is getting lighter
so i close my eyes,
trying to wake up at a better time,
until i feel rustling on my shoulder

"Ugh, my head is fucking pounding.." Amitola whispered to herself.
"Amitola..?" I whispered softly.
"Oh shoot, did I wake you up?" Amitola sighed.
"No no, I was already awake.." I smiled.
"Wanna go get some water with me..?" She smiled weakly.
"Sure.."

i help her up,
i help her up the stairs
into the kitchen
set her down on a stool
and just can't help but think
why she felt so dizzy
what i could do to help
but for now
i open the fridge
and pull out a chilled water bottle,
handing it to her softly

"Thanks.." She muttered.
"Mhm.." I replied, "So what's up?"
"What?" She questioned weakly, gulping down water.
"Why do you think your head is hurting so much..?" I sighed.
"Maybe somthing I ate.. Or didn't.." She said the last part quietly.
"What do you mean..?" I questioned firmly.
"Nothing, I don't know.." She muffled, staring at the floor.
"Whatever.." I walked away swiftly.

i didn't understand how she didn't have to say stuff and i did
how she had such an attitude with me
i don't get it
so i just lay back down
letting the voices whisper in my head
maybe she doesn't love you anymore..
or maybe she doesn't trust you
or just wants to spread all your problems at school
either way,
i was fucking pissed
if she didn't tell me stuff,
i didn't have to say shit either.

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"Alice wake up.." Jia whispered.
"Huh.. What?" I groaned.
"Everyone's having breakfast, come upstairs," She smiled.
"Okay one second.." I sighed, pulling my hair into a half up half down hairstyle.
"Cute!" Jia squealed, as we walked up to the kitchen.
"Hey everyone!" I groaned, picking a random stool.
"Here you go Alice.." Amitola's mom handed me eggs and toast.
"Thanks Mrs. Jones.." I smiled.
"Where's your food Amitola?" Jia tilted her head.
"She's not hungry.." Mrs. Jones interjected.
"Oh..?" Jia nodded her head slowly.
"You okay..?" I turned to Amitola who looked dead inside.
"Hm.. Yeah.." She gulped down some water.
"Okay.." I stopped eating.
"Is everyone served..?" Mrs. Jones smiled as we all nodded, "I'll be upstairs then.."
"I'm going to go pack up.." Jia said, grabbing Zuri's hand.
"Same.." Layla smiled.
"Sorry guys, I'm finished eating.." Elena walked out.
"How are you still not done..?" Amitola snickered.
"Here.." I passed my plate across the table, "I didn't eat any of the eggs.."
"Aren't you hungry?" She questioned weakly, staring at the plate.
"Looks like you need it more than I do.." I smiled. She started eating, finally.
"Thank you so much.." She said stuffing her mouth.
"So you haven't been eating much..?" I asked quietly.
"Can we talk about this later..?" She sighed.
"Either we talk about it now, or you let me stay another night." I smirked, "So we can talk about it"
"Okay, whatever," She put the dish in the sink.
"My mom won't care.." I smiled, "Can you go ask yours?"
"Sure, I'll be back.."
"I'll be downstairs.."

definitely a filler chapter even though it's kinda long.. :)