Dream one shots

The one.

A bit of a sad one, could possibly do a part two but not really sure!
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Dreams pov

"Sapnap stop!" Y/n's laugh flooded through my ears as I tried my best to focus on editing, but her laugh was intoxicating. I could listen to it for the rest of my life. As much as I loved her laugh I hated that I wasn't the one causing it...my best friend was.

"Then say it back!" Sapnap argued, I could hear their whole conversation from down the hall. The house fell silent for a moment before she spoke again, "I love you too, now quit."

Hearing her say those words felt like a stab in the chest, as if all the oxygen had been pulled from my lungs and I couldn't breath. Since when did they start saying that?

Three soft knocks pulled me out of my thoughts, I spun my chair around to see Y/n standing in my door way, an oversized sweatshirt hanging down to her mid thighs. I'm guessing she had shorts on underneath.

"I'm making dinner, chicken alfredo or spaghetti?" She asked, letting her head rest against the wooden frame as I did my best not to get lost in her gaze. It was hard, being completely in love with my best friends girlfriend, but I did my best at hiding it.

"Chicken alfredo, you make it the best." I complimented with a smile, a small smirk fell on her lips, "I wouldn't go that far, it'll be ready soon."

Awhile later I walked into the kitchen, seeing Sapnaps arms around her small frame as she finished dinner. I hated to admit it but they did look good together, her level headed mindset counter acted Sapnaps crazy perfectly.

"Did you bring in my dress? It needs to be hung up." Y/n asked him, throwing the now empty pot into the sink. Sapnap picked his head up off her shoulder and shook his head, "No, I'll go grab it."

The front door closed and I caught myself frozen, this happened every time I was alone in her presence. My mind being filled with every 'what if' situation you could think of. What if I told her I loved her? What would happen then? No, Dream, keep it together.

"Hey, Clay, you alright?" She asked, now standing in front of me with a plate of food perfectly prepared. I swallowed and took a deep breath, grabbing the plate and setting it on the table next to us.

"Actually, Y/n, I need to tell you something." I began, my palms were now sweaty from nervousness.

"Is everything okay?" She asked, putting a caring hand on my arm, I shook my head yes, then no, "Yeah, I mean—ugh, no, kind of?"

She giggled at my stuttering, "Come on, we're besties, spit it out."

"Iminlovewithyou." I spoke quickly, so quick she furrowed her brows and tilted her head in confusion.

"You're what?" She questioned, hoping I would repeat my words but I was stopped by the front door opening and closing.

Sapnap stood holding a red dress up, "I got your—" He froze, noticing how close his girlfriend and I were now standing, "Everything alright in here?"

"Yeah..." Y/n began, oh no, she definitely heard what I said, "Dreams a bit down, the video isn't turning out well." She lied. Why would she lie?

After the dress was placed on the back of the couch I felt him rest a hand on my shoulder, "Dude, all your videos start rough, we can work on it together after dinner." I hid my emotions with a chuckle.

"Yeah, I'm actually not that hungry, I'm gonna go try and finish editing." I sighed, turning on my heels towards the hallway.

"Dream!" Y/n yelled but I was already gone.

With my bedroom door locked I sat in my chair spinning back and forth.

I fucked up.

Why would I tell her that? She's happy. Sapnap is happy. I had to deal with them being happy together.

Deep down I knew I could make her happier, love her better.

Why couldn't I be the one?