I am my own home—no one can make me feel better than myself.
Sa mundong puno ng mga taong nahuhulog sa isa't isa, isa ako sa mga hindi kabilang sa kanila. Habang sila nahuhulog sa lalim ng nararamdaman para sa iba, ako naman hinahayaan ang sarili kong mahulog sa sarili ko.
You see, love isn't always about loving someone. Sometimes true love is loving someone apart from other people, and that is yourself. And I think it's unfair, to keep on finding that soulmate when you can't even make peace with your own soul.
There's beauty in loving yourself first before loving someone. And sometimes it's even better to not look for someone who can complete you. Sometimes, when you're out there looking so hard you'll suddenly realize that you, yourself, can do that. You can complete yourself and not ask for someone to do it for you.
I am that kind of person.
I am out here, saying 'sana all' as an expression and not a sign of wanting the same kind of love that they experience.
I am out here, enjoying what makes me feel alive—choosing peace and solitude as much as possible, drinking coffee, reading books, getting through college, and sleeping.
I am out here, sharing memes when I'm in the mood to joke around, and inspirational quotes when I'm trying to cheer myself up.
I am out here, enjoying my me-time all the time.
They date? Well, I also do. I'm with myself after all.
This is me, and this is how I function. It's already in my system.
So when they ask, "Takot ka ba sa commitment? Takot ka ba sa mga lalake?" The answer will never be yes.
I just, love myself, and I can't see anything wrong with that. I'm still on my journey to love myself even more. Because I'm striving for something, because I want to achieve something.
I want to be at a certain point in life when I can proudly look at myself in front of the mirror and ask, “Do you love me and the person that I've become?" then I will smile at my reflection, and with the brightest expression I will proudly answer. “Yes!”
So don't make it sound like an absurd idea to stay single. Being single is a choice, staying single is a choice. Let's respect one another's definition of love and happiness.
Kasi hindi naman uso ang pagiging taken. It's not a trend that one should follow.
At siguro, isa ako sa mga taong hindi sigurado kung kailan magiging sigurado. In a span of a month, a year or two, a decade, a lot can happen. Maybe my mind will change, maybe it will not.
But whether my story ends with 'they lived happily' or 'she lived happily' at the end of the day, know that it's my choice, and that choice is what I dared to take.
—i am my own home
