Im Gay, But It's A Secret

Chapter 8: Regret

It was days after the event that my room was completely empty, all my stuff had been transferred to either the place I was staying, or a storage shed, I had too much to fit in one tiny room, but I didn't have enough to fit into a large storage, so I got a small one. My friends had been asking me to move in with them for years because they knew I was gay even before I told them, I guess intuition is real after all. Once my room was empty I was ready to go, I said goodbye to my parents. I gave my sister and my little brother a hug and I left, that was 25 years ago, I haven't seen or spoken to them since. Once I arrived at my new house I started to unpack my things and make the room mine, I decorated it with lights, mandalas a beautiful rug and brand new bedding and bed sheets I had bought a couple of days prior. It took me 4 and a half hours and alot of music but I eventually got it done, the lights hung above my bed and across my windows, the rug was placed neatly beside my bed so my feet didn't get cold when I got up. The mandala hung as a backdrop behind my bed and as I was about to climb in, my phone vibrated (buzz buzz). I checked the message and it was from Jordan. He asked me if I wanted to go out and I was hesitant at first because of how tired I was with the move and getting comfortable. My brain clicked to an idea. I invited him to my house so we can have a night in and watch movies and have popcorn and have a proper movie night, he agreed so I gave him my new address, jumped in the shower and got nice and clean for when he came over, 5 minutes after I had jumped out of the shower I heard a knock on my window and sure enough Jordan was standing there with a bunch of roses in his hand. I went to the front door to greet him. He handed me the roses and gave me a kiss, I smiled at him, grabbed his hand and bought him inside and into my room, I went to get a vase to put the flowers in and put them on my desk. I locked the door and we laid in bed watching movies, I had heated up some popcorn prior to my shower so I didn't have to worry about moving when he had arrived. He laid down in my arms and cuddled himself into my chest, he looked up at me with his gorgeous brown eyes and gave me a kiss, don't even ask me how the movie we were watching ended, because I was glued to him for the rest of it. We had realised that tomorrow was the first day back at university so I asked if he wanted to stay the night and then we could go to school together tomorrow, he agreed, so for the rest of the night he cuddled up to me and fell asleep in my arms, and no sooner was he asleep, I was asleep too. When I woke up in the morning the sun was brightly shining through my window and I could barely see, but what I did see put the biggest smile on my face, he made me happy in situation I thought of at the time would be the worst thing that ever happened to me. I thought I had dreamt that he had stayed the night with me, but as I looked down I saw him cuddling up to me and I felt the warmth and love radiating off him.