More Than You Think

20

"Shots, shots, shots." Everyone was cheering as some took as much shots as possible. And I am one of them. I tried saying no but I cave in.
"Man (y/n) if you weren't so scary I would invite you more." Jason comments. "You want to repeat that?" I ask him.
He gulps before handing me another drink, "what, of course you're awesome." He quickly adds before leaving to his friends.
"What was that about?" Amy laughed.
"I wish I knew, but Jason was always a lightweight." I joke.
Erica and Mikey came up to us, "what happened to I'm not going to take any shots?"
I look at taking a sip of my drink, "They challenge me," was all I could answer. The next songs played, "Oh I love this song, come on Baby." Erica pulls Mikey where others are dancing.
"Where's Donnie?" I notice I haven't seen him since Amy's got here. She rolls her eyes, "He didn't come." Taking another sip I didn't push it further. "Where's Johnny?" She then asked me.
"He said it would be weird coming here since he doesn't go to our school anymore and it's not like he's bringing anything like drugs or drinks so there's no reason for him to be here." I explain.
She looks to where Vanessa is talking to Leo, "How did V take that?" She continues.
"Oh they fought earlier, she asked what about me and he said that he should enjoy time with us because lately anytime we hang out she drags him along and he'll be the only guy."
Amy looks back at me, "He's not wrong though, remember when we went to the mall and she brought him along."
"I think she's used to him always being around." I add knowing that she is used to swing him at school and that we did everything together well as long as it wasn't something weird. Amy simply shrugs before making her way to Vanessa and Leo as Raphael came up to me.
"Another drink after all those shots?"
Taking a sip, "Coming from the guy who just did a Keg Stand."

As the night went on Raphael and I were the last ones there from our group. Seeing our friends left I figure we should leave plus I'm feeling the alcohol. "Raphael we should go." I tell him as he exits the bathroom.
"Were you waiting for me?" He leans in the doorway for support clearly in a similar state that I am in. "Well you did offer to take me home right?" I leaned myself against his body, hoping to look like I need to be home at least. "You know," his body shifts for me to be more comfortable, "you look cute when you pout."
Continue my pout "Please Raphael, my friends left and I don't trust anyone else."
"Relax ya didn't have to beg." He tells me before gently standing straight which cause my body to get off of his. We began leaving, "Hey Siri send location to Brother." I tell my phone to do in case we get lost.
"Why not have your phone pull up the directions?" He asks me.
I shrug, "Angel always told me to send my location to him or Johnny. Since someone could be nearby listening to the directions while I'm not paying attention." I explain to him.
He doesn't seem to dwell on it, "He's very protective of you two huh?"
"Well yea he's our dad's best friend he was always there for us. He helped our dad register us for school and he even dropped us off on our first day with him. He fought for us, not to mention taught us how to drive and help us with our homework when we needed it. Although it was mostly math homework he's really good with numbers." I explain to him. Angel was like an uncle to us and well like a dad too, but me and Johnny agreed we can't call him that. However every Father's Day we make sure he knows how much we appreciate him and love him.
"Hold on, wrong way." Raphael grabbed my arm stopping me from going straight as he drags me to what I hope is the right direction.
"Sorry lost in thought." I tell him as he lets go of my arm.
"I guess that's something we could relate to. A father like figure that isn't our biological dad." He continues the conversation.
"What trying to get me to open up. Hate to break it to you Stitch but everyone knows that I'm adopted." I tell him.
I hear him grunt as he bumps into me, "Jeez I think we drank way too much to be walking. I guess good thing there aren't tickets for walking under the influence." Raphael burst out laughing which causes me to laugh with him. It wasn't a good joke but seeing how easy it was to have him double over made me laugh.
I began covering his mouth remembering what time it is, "shh people are trying to sleep." I tell him. He calms down from the fit of laughter. "Sorry come on. I think we need to go down to the next intersection."
Walking next to him, "That was fun at least until that girl tried coming on to you." I tease him. She was from the cheer squad and well like every other girl in our school she tried talking to Raphael. "I see you still get jealous." He teased me back. I laugh, "Please in your dreams, it was just sad how she tried so hard for your attention yet you didn't leave attention from a few drinks."
"It wasn't the drinks Angel." He says like it was nothing but honestly I think I just sobered up a bit from that.
"What do you mean?" My heart was racing with what he could have possibly meant especially with the nickname Angel. He rarely uses it but when he does I think back to Jersey.
Before I know it we were at my house but I wasn't ending this conversation.
"They're not like you. They all suck up to me. You on the other hand don't, you'll call me meat head, grumpy pants, the Grinch, Johnny Bravo had to look that one up, and so many more names that they wouldn't dare call me. They'll call me handsome, hot, ripped, and everything else you could think think of. I don't like it."
"What you want someone to call you meat head instead of my sexy man?"
He chuckles moving closer to me. "No I want someone who isn't afraid of me, they're all so timid around me. That when they come up to me all they do is complement me and honestly I don't want a pretty girl that can't even hold a conversation with me. I rather have a pretty girl," his hand cup my face almost closing the gap, "that not only isn't scared of me but I can actually talk to."
"We should go inside." I say not asking if he wants to stay over, he smirks "Get your head out of your ass, it's late and you're clearly more drunk than I thought." I argue back at him.
"See. Not scared to tell me to get my head out of my ass." He let's go of my face allowing me to open the door.

As we enter my room I go into my bathroom to change out my clothes and into something comfortable. When I get out Raphael is in his boxers, Fuck. Making my way to my bed I get under the covers. He joins me but of course he doesn't take long to ask, "Can I kiss you?" I thought for a moment about my feelings for Raphael and Rebel. How Rebel and I have been more closer but we're not dating.
"What's wrong not good enough for you?" He ask with sadness behind his voice.
"It's not that I'm kinda talking to somebody right now." I admit to him.
He climbs over me, "Are you and him dating?" He ask me looking deep into my eyes.
"No, we're not." I answer him truthfully.
"Then what's wrong, don't want me? You were all over me at the party." He wasn't wrong I was.
"I do want you." Escape my lips before I could think about what to say. He closes the gap between us and his hands roam around my body caressing every curve and squeezing me until he reached my clit. "Oh Raphael." I moan out knowing I failed at not doing this again.